right now im worried im not gonna end up having enough money to come to japan.
this thought makes me very upset and almost border-line want to cry.
i miss it so much. i miss tokyo alot!
im hopin to get to see some of my friends i got over there too and that i havent gotten to hang out with yet because of different circumstances.....
if i dont get to go i dont know what im gonna do....
i wonder if i should just quit my job and buy a one way ticket and live over there instead and risk getting deported...
im chicken shit though....
this sucks.....
i'm gonna have to bust my non existing balls off for this because its already november and i dont even got 100usd saved up....and i want to do so much and the fucking airfare went up like 500usd! （Ｔ＿Ｔ）
im not gonna get anything at the dir en grey concert cause i dont feel like it.....
if anything i'll get a tshirt but thats it.....
i need money for mucc also and to talk my manager into letting me stay out those two days from work on december.
i hope he really lets me. this is like my christmas gift for my mom and i already bought the tickets and there's no way im missing seeing tatsurou cause suppostly i cant take days off.....
this three next months are gonna be hell!