Going to shinrinkoen today, woke up with a bad stomach feeling, but this time I'll brave it to grow. On the meds or off the meds, it used to be a choice but not more. I've made up my mind to continue the treatment, and facing my fears bit by bit, not to return to a previous me but to grow into a person today who can thrive within society, as I've always hoped to do. No more running away.
Time to get ready.