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It's been a while since i update in here.Anyway no one will read this,just me.So to myself...how do you feel?Do you still want to cry so hard like you did yesturday?
I am sorry.I apologize because i've became a burden to myself and everyone around ,i guess.
Nigh is here soon you'll go to sleep and you still think at those people that are important to you but in the same time they do not know what you mean for them.They are your salvation.And one of them was embracced by the cold arms of death.You cried a lot,ne?
Maybe all this lonlyness and emptyness from your soul is so hard to endure it.Even if are so many people arond you are still alone and the fake smile on yuor face it is so hard to put it on.Does the sadness and my real feelings cannot be readed in my eyes?
When did it became so painful to live?
Today i finished to watch this drama,Akai Ito and i loved it.Too bad that in reality our lifes doesn't have a happy ending,...sou deu ne?
I am sorry.I apologize because i've became a burden to myself and everyone around ,i guess.
Nigh is here soon you'll go to sleep and you still think at those people that are important to you but in the same time they do not know what you mean for them.They are your salvation.And one of them was embracced by the cold arms of death.You cried a lot,ne?
Maybe all this lonlyness and emptyness from your soul is so hard to endure it.Even if are so many people arond you are still alone and the fake smile on yuor face it is so hard to put it on.Does the sadness and my real feelings cannot be readed in my eyes?
When did it became so painful to live?
Today i finished to watch this drama,Akai Ito and i loved it.Too bad that in reality our lifes doesn't have a happy ending,...sou deu ne?
True.
I do feel like this because soon i know that i gotta start my life again for i do not know how much time.A new country,a language that i do not know,in a place that i won't have privacy and feeling so alone with no friends,because the only one that counts now,are the ones from the internet.The old friend i had to leave them in the past because i hate people that use you.It is so low and it is not worth to stay with those.
Dreams are more important.
It rained today.I love the rain because i always get the feeling that then,the earth it is crying his own sadness.It gives me this calmness and sadness that i cannot explain too well.
I feel so sad because again i won't see Miyavi's face in the morning ,holding his guitar in that sensual way like in that posten next to my bed,i won't chat with my friends so often,i won't breathe the fresh air anymore and i won't be able to love my pets at all.I love all of them and i am afraid that some of them will be gone when i'll be back,like it did until now with some of them.
I dislike when there is no choise.
Here is one of my beloved cats:Reita,my baby tha hates to be huged and the black cat that looks kinda scary,i love this one so much.
I do feel like this because soon i know that i gotta start my life again for i do not know how much time.A new country,a language that i do not know,in a place that i won't have privacy and feeling so alone with no friends,because the only one that counts now,are the ones from the internet.The old friend i had to leave them in the past because i hate people that use you.It is so low and it is not worth to stay with those.
Dreams are more important.
It rained today.I love the rain because i always get the feeling that then,the earth it is crying his own sadness.It gives me this calmness and sadness that i cannot explain too well.
I feel so sad because again i won't see Miyavi's face in the morning ,holding his guitar in that sensual way like in that posten next to my bed,i won't chat with my friends so often,i won't breathe the fresh air anymore and i won't be able to love my pets at all.I love all of them and i am afraid that some of them will be gone when i'll be back,like it did until now with some of them.
I dislike when there is no choise.
Here is one of my beloved cats:Reita,my baby tha hates to be huged and the black cat that looks kinda scary,i love this one so much.
