April was an amazing month.
I went beyond the time concept on earth I bet, I felt like it had been already 3 months or so while it was only 27 days. It's a weird feeling but I must have savored in each and every moment for the whole month of April because I never felt an urge or a rush through whatsoever. I never felt that the time flew by as quick as I always feel in general. It's interesting that how you feel about time seems like happening only in your head. Needless to say, I enjoyed so much staying at and meeting up with my friends as well as visiting places in California.
What I'm proud of during this trip is that I rented a car and went everywhere on my own, for the most part. This is not a scary thing, rather, a celebratory thing for me because I'm able to completely free myself while driving and that is a big deal for me! It symbolizes my freedom, my free spiritedness, and my independence.
Ever since I moved in the US at the age of 19, I learned about them blindly sometimes and openwidedly other times. My parents never taught me these; I don't think they know about these at all. Living in America on my own taught me these. Living with Americans taught me these. Living in the moment on my own in America taught me about these special things. For me, these are the spiritual phenomena that I'd want to experience every single day.
I love America. It supported me when I needed help. It saved me when I was drowning. It lifted me up when I hit the rock bottom. It invited numerous opportunities for me to experience, feel, taste and be. Raw experiences you always truly feel blessed to have. It was there for me so that I could grow. It showed me to trust the process so that I would know I am OK. It showered me with love so that I would feel how It loves me so much no matter what. Regardless of what my family thinks, what other minorities feel, what America did to build Its nation or what's really going down currently, I love America like She is my beloved Mother. Although She might not be perfect and you might see the dark side of her occasionally since we live in the world of duality, I still love Her for what she's done for me.
I'm having an intimate moment with her right now. Nobody has to know what I went through when I was completely alone and helpless, but America was there to reach her hand out for me, to hug me, to embrace me and to unconditionally love me to the bones. Nobody knows and nobody needs to know, but She gave me an opportunity to rebirth my new me.
No wonder I felt that California is my home sweet home because that's where my heart is. That's where I was reborn into my opportunity-filled limitless spirit. That's my land of the free and the home of the brave.
Nobody has to know as long as I know. I know I don't need any approval or permission because the most important person I trust knows it. That's it, that's all I need. I'm a brave soul in my land of the free, I cultivate my life in the home of the brave. I love my life no matter how many people hate me. As long as I love my spirit, as much as I love me, it's all good. I go on with hope-filled life I am now. Thank you universe for the opportunity. And for the reminder!
As always, Love ❤️