Lord,
Please help me have a long term friendship.
Please help me build good relationship.
Please help me not focus on my selfish desires.
Please help me show my love and not be shy about it.
Please help me say the words I mean to say.
Amen
I didnt make the instructional plan even I promised to do it.
When I ask Reggy to make it together this morning, he said, is that all? and gave me his output. And he looked in bad mood.
I was embarrassed of myself.
I am thinking of making an output to reedem myself, greater or equal to his.
But its not good since I am just pressuring myself to hide my insecurity.
Dear Lord above,
please help me change my insecure mindset.
I am now in our department's computer lab.
Our teacher psoted on FB that we finalize our requirements today in the computer lab.
But I already finished all of them.
Now I just I accompany my friend. 
I thought Saturday would be my last day at school. But we still have to come back for our presentation in this subject!! 
Why do we have to come back when Saturday is already scheduled that it's our last?? 
When I think of my Belgian friend, I get to think of children and family.
These days I think of my future family. My husband... my children... where we will live, how we will leave, what our days will be...
And I feel many of my selfishness will go away when I will have my own children.
When I think of these things, I feel a little bit grown up. 
My Belgian friend never say to me these things.
But his patience and care for me when talking make me imagine of future. Thx friend 
I miss my German friend, my french friend and my Belgian friend!!!!!!!!!!!! (T_T) huhuhu I just want to be with them
This is a poem I made.
My roommate didn't continue to read it because she cannot understand many words in this poem.
When I made this poem, I didn't really think fo any special organization. I just thought of any "nice" sounding word and it came up. Lol
I'm expecting for a reprimand from my teacher for making this kind of poem. lol
Long gone is the teacher of Yesterday
Who is cast away into the abyss of simplicity
Behind that pompous, domineering guise of authority
Is an umwelt—short, narrow, secluded, dull and lonely
inside a pit of obscurity bordered by towering walls of echoing frivolous fears and concerns all in a commotion
waiting to be slashed open by a sword of a brilliant fine light that carries tomorrow’s strong glare hope
and be fondled by the passionate hands of dashing novel ideas that enthuse everything with a new life—renaissance! And reorganization! A revival and reconstruction for what used to be old, dry and barren.
Brave, huge, powerful and far-sighted
Here awaits the teacher of today!
Furnished with new-fangled beliefs and branded with strident expertise in innovation and technology
Blast off into the vast yonder of globalization and multiculturalism
Ready to explode and bombard upon the people
The transformative ideas bringing people closer and beyond the
boundaries, limitations and inequality that used to define one’s value
The umwelt is no longer what it was once poorly regarded as
It embraces other realms, an amalgamation of science and religion, white and black, transsexual and the normal boys and girls, disabled and the normal functioning people
It is colourful, vibrant, and luscious because of its sensational variety.
Regardless of the time and space the teacher is in, he stands at the edge of the solar system, contemplating the beyond, venturing in the complex realities afforded by his intellect and imagination
in order to keep life interesting and moving forward for the younger generation’s legacy.
Being a teacher, then, is not something that is overlooked
He remembers, understands, applies, analyses, evaluates, creates
He thinks! He shares! And most of all, he lets others learn
But learning always starts from zero.
“If you can’t understand it, rotate the picture into 180 degrees.”
It is by this belief alone that a teacher stands his ground of being one.
Through these words that applaud the teacher in so many sensual ways
The poet hopes that you look at your teacher with reverence
and let there be an elevation in the vigour of your performance in your tasks.
For being a teacher is an exalted matter.
Everyday I always think of him. Even during class. I miss my German friend so much (T_T) What should I do??? Hope I can finally send him the mail I made.
Yesterday was our class and we had our 4th minor exam in Logic. On the same hour he announced that he's gonna leave the class after midterm. By leaving, he meant leaving the entire university. Of course I felt sad.
We only meet twice a week, but I like his subject and I like him (by the way, he is handsome).
Before he once ordered me to buy special paper but I brought him the wrong one (I volunteered to be his secretary). After that it seemed he looked at me with disdain... I hated that.. in other situations he smirked at my odd behavior. and of all professors only from him I felt the urge to prove to him I'm not what he thought to be. So with my heart I searched for the paper and brought the right one. I felt good when I felt his gradual approval of me.
I have become emotionally attached to my teacher even though we haven't exchanged anything personal story about our lives at all...Just seeing him, listening to his class already makes me happy so I'm sad if he leaves.... T_T
I think my relationship (friendship) with that German guy is over.
Of course, I'm sad. Because I like him very much.
I just try to think that our relationship wouldn't last long anyway.
Why?
He doesn't really know me. I don't really know him too.
All his admiration and feeling of wonderment is nothing to me.
It's because...
if I compare to the story of the mother and baby fox, it's because I didn't show my real paw. It's like a lie.
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Of course, I'm sad. Because I like him very much.
I just try to think that our relationship wouldn't last long anyway.
Why?
He doesn't really know me. I don't really know him too.
All his admiration and feeling of wonderment is nothing to me.
It's because...
if I compare to the story of the mother and baby fox, it's because I didn't show my real paw. It's like a lie.
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