Yesterday night, I received a text message from our class president asking for help to carry the things of my fat teacher from school and from her apartment the next day.
And I replied I would help.
I thought it's also summer vacation, I have nothing to do...wouldn't helping the teacher be a good idea? Also, I would express my thanks to her through helping her.
The plan was to arrive at school at 7:00 AM.
I arrived late. 7:05 AM. But it seems nobody was there. The president who asked me to help was late.
At the guard house, 2 security guards there were sitting.
"Why are u here?" they asked.
"I'm going to help ma'am." I replied
And I noticed that my schoolmate is on the bench sleeping!
"Oh that's U!! I thought U were somebody else" I said to my schoolmate.
My schoolmate was wearing basketball player clothes. But he was sleeping on the bench. But then he got up and sat.
"are U also going to help ma'am?" I asked him.
He said yes and we had some conversations.
One of the security guards told me my schoolmate was still there since 6:30 AM.
"Earlyだなー" thought.
My schoolmate seemed like he didn't take morning shower.
I asked him, "Did U take a shower?"
"No. But I took last night. But I don't smell bad. I still smell fresh. *Smells armpit*"
I laughed a little bit.
"Yeah, U dun stink." I thought.
The guards were watching us, laughing a little bit.
------------------------/---------------- I think what my schoolmate said was funny.
While I was listening to him, I thought his voice has changed. It has become manly.
This schoolmate of mine was my classmate when I was in my elementary years. So I know him, maybe. So that's why I was able to say "his voice has changed".
He was also able to talk with the guards like an adult.
While listening to them, I thought "wow. I want to become like him, being able to talk a lot."
My eyes didn't キラキラ. But my inner self was.
At that time, I thought I have to do my best talking very well with people whom I don't know so much. Because I was silent listening to them.
Sometimes I have nothing to say. But my mind keeps on telling me to say something so that other person will feel comfortable with me.
Well, I will observe and listen how my classmates and other people react to this statement and that. And I will follow it. くっくっ(o^^o)
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We had some conversations. And I kept on nodding.
The security guards and my schoolmate kept talking about the teacher---- is she a good teacher or not, do u understad the lessons or not, things like that.
And then the teacher finally came.
She first saw me. She was smiling at me.
"Freya, is that you? Why are U here? Why are u guys here?"
"We're here to help u carry ur things ma'am ^^"
and then we had some conversations blah blah blah
it was a quiet morning because students weren't there.
And then the president arrived.
The conversation became very lively because the president talks a lot and is very entertaining.
うらやましい。
She and the teacher talk very well and are enjoying it even though they are not so close.
うらやましい。
But my other self tells me not to be うらやましい。
"Freya is Freya. It's fine just being you. It's fine not to say something."My other self tells me.
"Mind other people too. U should talk." My 2nd self tells me.
It was in the afternoon when the teacher shared something to us.
She was sharing about an answer she liked from a certain student.
The question was something like
"Your country experiences flooding. how can u show Ur love to your country when it's flooding?"
According to her, it was an intelligent and an honest answer. So she automatically gave it a perfect score.
She said that the student answered
"As a student who has no job, only depend on parents, I can show my love for my country by taking pictures of the flooded areas. Through this, I can help. I will share this to the internet. And the other people in the other countries will come to know about it. We don't know that what I have shared might reach the prime minister and he/she might decide to help our country. My simple love (hobby) might help the country. Yours might be too."
She said this is an answer she's been looking for, she liked it and she also added that out of 38 students, only 1 person answered like this.
She also compared it to the other student's answer which sounded funny to her.
According to her, the other student answered, "I will build a school blah blah"
She was laughing while saying it. Students too are laughing.
Some students asked who is that person who gave the answer.
The teacher didn't answer it. Instead, she said to us "You know who you are."
Tell me, was it right for the teacher to expose the student's answer?
For me, I don't think it's right to share answers in front of the students.
True that the teacher haven't told the name. The comment might have complimented the student who answered it. But some students might be discouraged by the teacher's comment "Out of 38 students, only 1 answered like this". Some students might not have positive and mature thinking yet so, it might mean "ah the teacher didn't appreciate my answer. So all my efforts aren't enough."
If all students see comment like this as positive and a way to motivate them to do their best more, then saying comment like this is OK. だいじょうぶ。
I think what is wrong in here is how the teacher says the comment. She should have done it in constructive criticism. You know, saying first positive comments and then comes the negative comments or what U don't like about the answer and the things that needs to be improve or some recommendations to be given... This constructive criticism is commonly given to the person whom U don't really know well. And it lets the person think that U aren't attacking him/her. This might avoid the person to feel or act negatively.
In this case, the teacher should have said "I've read and like all of Ur answers. But one thing U guys should improve is to make it practical."
Complimenting about the answer which the student wrote should be done personally. Meaning, only the student and the teacher are the ones who know about it.
What do you think about it? And the answer which the student gave?
Actually, when the teacher said her comments, everyone looked to be okay with it and find no problems with it. So why am I saying things like these? Am I looking for a problem? www
Others might appear to be okay with it. But deep in their mind, they might be thinking negative.
So I think it would be better to think and prepare what to say before a person acts. Because other person might see it differently.
Wait.
I think the person him/herself is the problem. No matter how much U thought very well and prepared what to say, it's up to the other person's mind how it is thought.
The problem is simply the person's negative mind. It's always our enemy. It's always the one who destroy ourselves.
It sounds complicating. But actually, the problem is simply our very own selves.
The bike was on top of me. It was heavy and some parts of my body was injured.
I tried to get up. It was hot
so I was sweating and I saw blood in my hand.
"wow", I thought.
The last time I got an injury like this from playing was probably... around 6-7 years ago. I got a scar of it in my left knee. The reason why I got a scar in my left knee is funny. It's because I stumbled down while I was doing my best to run away from my cousin's joke (^O^)
But the most painful part from today's accident is my left shoulder.
I did not see it yet because it was covered by cloth.
I immediately went home. I planned not to tell anyone, even my parents. Well, it's usual. No problem for me, actually.
I have a goal why I don't want to tell anyone. That is... I want to learn how to take care of my own self having injuries like this. Because in the future, there might be no parents anymore to take care of me when I'm injured. So I must be ready for it. And I must practice my skills!! I want to become first aider of myself
This is my left shoulder that got injured.
And this is after it got cleaned a little bit.
Thinking about this, I thought "Must I regret biking on the quite steep slope? But I gained what I want... experience."
ところで、a few days ago I was recommended by the person in charge to undergo training as a prospective officer of a certain training program I knew it'll be tiring if I join it. This training requires great physical strength and endurance.
I said to myself I would join it.
But with my condition right now, being injured, shall I join it?
Training starts on 4th of April.
Anyway, my shoulder starts to become painful again. I can't raise my left arm since it's painful (>_<)
今日はまた英語で書きます。 だって日本語を書いてで私にはむずかしいです。 私にはおそらく It might take me 1 day to think and write in Japanese. 日本語の文書を考え付きと書いては私には一日がかかってかも知れない。w
だから、あいかわらず 英語を使います。(⌒▽⌒)
さーて 書いてことは はじめます。
"It's a pleasant morning", I thought.
"It'd be nice if I go biking and be in an adventure", I thought.
"I must train myself being alone", I thought.
"It might be fun", I thought.
"Plus, I might reduce weight by sweating a lot くっくっ "
In the morning, I did biking using a mountain bike of my dear おやじ from several years ago (probably almost 20 years).
At first it was difficult and painful for me to bike on the way that has many small rocks because the seat of the MTB is too high for me and I'm not a boy so... whatever (⌒-⌒; )
While I was biking and seeing the scenes, I thought
"I didn't know there are such places like these. I guess I haven't really gone out from the house and explore my surroundings so much."
I saw the colors of the trees and grasses beautified by the light of the sun and the fresh air. I liked it.
Then I went back to home. It was around 9:20 AM.
Even though one of my goals was to reduce weight, I ate all of the snacks after I got home. It means I might gain weight after eating it.
Teriyaki Chicken.
I couldn't help eating so much of it since it's yummy.
It's yummy. So I ate all. I ate all secretly. ♪(´ε｀ )
And in the afternoon I went back biking.
I got the MTB back from the stock room.
And then I had my dear おやじ adjust the seat to make it lower.
And he asked me "Why do U want it to be lower? It's a mountain bike so it should be high..."
And I said "I can't reach the ground"
after some time,
"Be careful, ding!" he said.
And after that, I prepared some things in a bag.
And then I went out again
Oh there is an intersection... "which one should I go first?" I thought. "whatever", thought.
It's a hot day.
Actually it's not a surprise since everyday in here the temperature is hot
Every foreigner who has white skin and who stays in my country and expose him/herself under the heat of the sun for a long time will surely get a tan skin color.ふふん ( ´艸｀)
As U can see, the mountains look far. I can't go there. まよってしまうw But I want to go there with my classmates and have camping and watch the sky and clouds, breath fresh air and sleep peacefully. いいなー(°∀°)
I was taking the first way from te intersection (left).
So I decided to go back and take the 2nd intersection.
んで、 2nd road にいきました。
This is scary because there are many stones and it's quite steep.
I thought
"Shall I continue biking?"
"If I continue, I might lose balance and fall from the bike and be injured......."
"Whatever. I want to try biking through this. I will get experience. This is a challenge for me.うん. It's an adventure. "
And I continued.
While I was biking, the texture of the way which has many stones affects the wheel of the bike and I almost lost balance. In the middle of it, I lost balance. I stopped and fell on the ground.
Nobody was there. It's a peaceful place and I think they were sleeping in their houses...
There, you could see me sitting in the bench as usual, waiting.
I was looking at my feet while thinking about something when... somebody placed his/her hands on my head. ちょっとびっくりした。だって for somebody to be touching your head suddenly...
I moved my head up to see who it was.
And it was that priest.
I mean, it was that kind priest!
（＾Ｏ＾）ooohhhh
"How are U? ^^ ", he asked me.
I didn't know what to say. I just also replied "How are U?"(⌒-⌒; )
"You're waiting as usual for your father?" he said.
And I nodded.
"What time does he get U?" he asked.
"Around 5:40 PM. But sometimes around 6:00 PM" I answered.
"What time is it?" he asked
"5:16 PM" i answered.
And we talked some things for a few minutes and then he get inside the school.
30 minutes passed by. And there were already lesser students still staying at the school.
The number of students sitting in the bench also decreased. They already went home.
And that kind priest came back to me and sat beside me.
And he sat beside me, I heard him saying "Still waiting? ... blah blah You're my favorite girl"
and he started to ask some questions. And I answered. Like, what I've been busy, my plans for summer vacation. Yeah. Things like those.
We talked a few things about this blog and my classmates. Yeah.
And then he asked me something like "Are U still kind? ^^ "
I can't say I'm fully kind ですけど だって I would sometimes scold my classmates with a loud voice. But of corz I limit the words I say. Too much deep words might hurt. So I think using loud voice with not so deep words (or few amount of words) is だいじょうぶ。 Even so, I still can't say I'm fully kind.
For his question, "I answered, "sometimes I am. Sometimes not. I sometimes scold my classmates with a loud voice when they don't follow my orders."
"a it's okay. As long as they understand." he replied.
"The last time I saw Ur mother, I thought U r the younger version of her. U look like her" ,he said.
I laughed a bit.
"A U'll be prettier than her soon ^^ " he said.
はっは
So he means that now my mother is still prettier than me. And that when I grow, I'll be prettier than her.
はっは
and we talked about some things...
and I heard again "... U r my favorite good girl ^^ "
and then it's time for him to go back inside the school.
He said he would attend a meeting.
Then, he stood up. As he was going back, I said my thanks and good bye to him.
At the same minute of the priest going back inside the school, my father already arrived.
My memories of talking with the priest always gives me a happy feeling. He is so kind even though we only talk very less and so rare.
かれはいいどもだちとおもう。 I want to keep friends such as him.
