I still like that German guy
I want to always chat with him T_T
With this situation how do I tell him that I like him huhuhu
Also this tike I have never asked anything so much about his interest.......
I never told my father that I love him.
And kept all that I have been doing in secret.
Whenever I did something he doesnt notice it.
And told me "if you want to become so it requires much effort"
and just doesn't believe in me.
It is the past but still I cant get over with it.
When he was mistaken he never apologized to me too.
He never thought about his mistake.
All he did was to think he was in the right
and my silence meant it was all right with him.
When in fact I was just waiting for him to tell me directly what is the matter with me.
I know
I've been stupid all along
and all I talk about in this blog is my negative part and complaints
sometimes, when I think that my vision is lost, I just say anything, like copying what other people say. i cannot be silent, but express my need in speaking, and in other words. i dont know what i need; if it's only single or plural. but it's okay to appear I say anything, so long as i remember what i want and where everything is coming from, how i thought this way, or where everything will go. its important not to lose this memory or else i will be insane...
What I want:
1) Talk with father in Japanese, talk about different stuff with him
2) Show emotions to other people, dont hesitate to hug, disagree or agree, show touch
3) tell off confidently
4) help others if the time is right and not just always say yes
5) improve math, comprehension and listening skills
6) learn how to take care of children, people, communication skills
7) learn how to handle a conversation, problem solving
8) improve memory
9) hug father tight
10) renew life with father
11) 100% clean the house
12) change entire clothes, entire body appearance
13) behave like a woman
14) stop being immature/ childish
15) be nice to people
16) be honest always
17) learn how to cook, nurse for people/children
18) learn to care about my environment, people
19) be sincere in expressing all my words and be real friends with friends
Why am I a shy girl?
All problems I have because I do not show my emotions.
I do not talk with my father.
