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コメント書くためだけに作ったアカウントだけど、、、なんとなく日記でも書いてみるか

本当はどうなんどろうあたしの気持ち。

今はまだどうせいつもみたいにすぐもとに戻るのかなって思う部分もあるし、本当に終わっちゃうのかなとも思う。

でもいつもみたいに突発的なものじゃないし、お互いに冷静だったと思うからそれが微妙にひっかかる。

でも試してみる価値はあるよね

それでまた良い人にめぐり逢えたらそれはそれでいいし

やっぱりすごいすきってなったらまた頑張ればいいし

でもあんまり遅すぎちゃったらだめだね気をつけなきゃ、、、

ive been thinking all the time. just got tired to love u, cuz my love is gettin really bigger and bigger.

u make me many kinds of feeling. my first time to feel or think about i wanna marry or have a your baby.

and raise baby together have a family with u. this is really really big deal in my life. i think i cant find better than u for me. i know u r caring about me very much and try to make a time for me. cuz i always complain about that. but i couldnt stand with that situation. cuz i love u too much, so getting greedy. i feel like i wanna everything of you and even wanna pregnant. like if i pregnant you will be always mine. it is crazy huh.... since i met u ive been having really thought or mind but also im really happy with my love too. i came here and met you. then u love me too. how wonderful it is. just i am not strong enough to be with u. when i was in japan i didnt text back to u few days and u sent me a message about breaking up. now you know that feeling. ive been always feeling that. thats why got tired to be in love with u. its reall hard. you told me you wish u hadnt met me... me neither. i wish that a lot. but cuz i met u, i have a many many memories with you. not only fun things though. i love to argue with u about gas!hahah everything everything.................. now when i remember our time i love everythig we did and u did to me. i think i love you more than wat i thought, omg cant stop crying. since met u i think my tears get too much and not enough. ive been crying all the time. i didnt think about this time came up this soon. dont wanna cry anymore but cant stop. whos gonna next to me when im crying. war else......

and i didnt know that u envy other girlfrids. me too. always when i hear someones boyfriends story, i always think if i have that kind of boyfriend....

our prblems are we have a lot of thoughts and desire for each other and just keep in mind, cuz we know it is difficult for us now. of course i wanna give u full tank of gas aevrytime, make u cookies or lunch everyday....... you know when i go to shopping and find some nice clothes or things i always like oh i wanna buy for him! it is good for aaron. like that. i dont think u have this kind of feeling. but anyway i wanna do for u anything, if u r gonna be satisfied and happy. but still we wanna expect that and in the real never happen. but u know i think we wish i had that boyfriend or girlfriend but at the same time but i dont wanna anybody else all i need is just u and hopefully if u can accept my desire like that. of course people wanna ask to complete our desire, but things r not like that. so we have to discuss and some of desire i can accept but that one is no, ok then im gonna give up that but in stead of that blablabla,,,, like that. i cant be with u without thinking about my future. i cant live without u. i wanna be with u entire my life. and im sure i love u more than anybody espessialyy your x girlfriends. and you are lucky met someone who really really love and care you in this big world . and im also really lucky i met someone who i can do that. i really appreciate for everything. thanks. ill always love u very much.

てか浸りたいだけかも笑

うそだー

とりあえずすごいすき

結婚したいなー子供がほしい一緒に子供を育てたいと思う

こんなあたしにそう思わせるなんてやつはすごい