4-30-23: feeling that everything you do is wrong

the feeling that everything you do is wrong can stem from various factors, including neurobiology, perception, and life experiences. Let's break it down:

1. Neurochemical Imbalance: Our brain relies on a delicate balance of neurotransmitters, such as dopamine and serotonin, to regulate mood and motivation. If there's an imbalance in these chemicals, it can lead to feelings of negativity and self-doubt, which may cause you to perceive your actions as wrong.
2. Negative Thought Patterns: Our brains have a natural tendency to focus on negative experiences more than positive ones, known as the negativity bias. Over time, this can lead to the development of negative thought patterns that make it difficult to recognize our successes and positive qualities.
3. Self-Fulfilling Prophecy: When we constantly believe that we're doing everything wrong, it can create a self-fulfilling prophecy, where our actions start to align with our beliefs. This can result in an increased likelihood of making mistakes or engaging in self-sabotaging behavior.
4. Past Experiences and Conditioning: Our upbringing, past experiences, and social environment can have a profound influence on our self-perception. If you've experienced criticism, failure, or rejection, it can lead to feelings of inadequacy and the belief that everything you do is wrong.
5. Stress and Anxiety: Chronic stress and anxiety can have a negative impact on our mental health, making it challenging to think clearly and objectively. This can contribute to the feeling that everything you do is wrong, even when it isn't.

To overcome this feeling, consider adopting some of the following strategies:

1. Cultivate Mindfulness: Practice mindfulness meditation to develop non-judgmental awareness of your thoughts and feelings. This can help you recognize negative thought patterns and develop healthier perspectives.
2. Reframe Negative Thoughts: Challenge and reframe negative thoughts by finding alternative, more positive interpretations of your actions and experiences.
3. Practice Self-Compassion: Treat yourself with kindness and understanding, acknowledging that everyone makes mistakes and has flaws. This can help you develop a more balanced view of your actions.
4. Seek Professional Help: If your feelings of constant failure are overwhelming and affecting your daily life, consider seeking the help of a mental health professional, such as a psychologist or therapist.
5. Develop Healthy Habits: Engage in regular exercise, maintain a balanced diet, and prioritize sleep to support optimal brain function and mental health.

Remember, our thoughts and feelings aren't always an accurate reflection of reality. By understanding the underlying factors and adopting strategies to challenge negative beliefs, you can develop a healthier and more accurate perception of your actions.

4-29-23: what is a scientist

What does it mean to be a scientist? Not everyone is cut out to spend their days working in a lab and entering data into a scientific notebook. If you display these five symptoms, you may have the condition known as “being a scientist.”

Symptom 1: Terminal Curiosity

When you look up at the night sky and see the stars shining down, do you obsessively start thinking about the atomic processes that allow celestial bodies to form? Or maybe you start trying to calculate exactly how many centuries the light you’re now seeing took to travel through the cosmos to reach your eyes, and if you can figure out whether or not the star you’re currently observing still even exists. If you’re not content with just accepting how things work, and you need to know why the world and the universe work the way they do, you have the first symptom of being a scientist.

Symptom 2: Obsessive Data Disorder

Have you ever seen a news story that sites a certain chart or data set, and you immediately start questioning the validity of the numbers or the parameters that the data is being filtered through? For some people, simply being told a percentage or shown a graph isn’t good enough. They need to see the numbers for themselves, to take a look at the raw data and come up with their own conclusions. That’s a good thing: A real scientist loves diving into a giant pool of data and experiencing it for themselves.

Symptom 3: Uncontrollable Enthusiasm for Learning

Some people don’t just like to learn new things; they have to keep learning. And not only do they love learning new facts, figures, and details that seem insignificant to most people, but that change the very way you look at things, they can’t help but share their excitement with their friends, family, and coworkers. Bombarding your friends with all the details of biological organisms function may get you blank stares at a party. But when you’re in the lab, the reaction is much more welcoming.

Symptom 4: Unnatural Displays of Patience

Of course, scientists can’t just love data and learning new things. They have to be willing to search for it. Spending hours researching, crunching numbers, hypothesizing, and coming up with new experiments that may eventually lead nowhere isn’t for everyone. But if you’re willing to spend as long as it takes bent over a microscope or organizing meticulously collected numbers into a spreadsheet in order to get one more number that you can add to months or years of collected research, then science may be in your blood.

Symptom 5: Excess Logic

For a scientist, something isn’t truly explained until it makes logical sense. It’s not enough to accept that things just work a certain way; a scientist has to know why, no matter how long it takes. If you find yourself picking apart the things your friends say, looking for inconsistencies and logical fallacies, or if you aren’t happy with an explanation from an authority figure until you’ve had a chance to hear the exact train of logic that lead them to come up with a particular policy or explanation, you have another one of the symptoms of being a scientist.

Does this sound like you? Then, congratulations! You’re probably on the road to becoming a great scientist. Next time you need to stock up on laboratory notebooks and other supplies, be sure to contact Scientific Notebook Company at 800-537-3028.

3-12-23: why touch is important

Why is touch so important?

When we’re stressed, our body produces the stress hormone cortisol. According to Healthline, human touch can help lower the hormone, which explains why we feel so inclined to hug a loved one or hold their hand when something crappy happens. A study of 51 couples from 2008 found that intimacy between the couples was associated with lower daily cortisol levels.

Something as simple as a handshake can calm bodily functions, like your heart rate and blood pressure. Touch has also been shown to stimulate pressure receptors that transport signals from the brain to the rest of the body and slow the pace of the nervous system — literally calming your body down.

Touch is also a great way to manage loneliness and something as simple as a pat on the back from a stranger has been shown to help reduce social exclusion.

Why is the outcome of lack of touch?

Lack of touch can have a massive impact on your physical, mental and emotional health. While there’s no way to know if skin hunger is the reason behind these symptoms (especially given the current world climate), the overwhelming feeling of touch deprivation is loneliness.

According to Healthline, other symptoms of skin hunger include feelings of depression, anxiety, stress and difficulty sleeping.

How to manage a lack of physical touch?

It’s just not possible for many people to access physical touch at the moment, so you have to get creative in lieu of hugs and kisses. Solo touch is the next best thing so experiment with actions like cuddling a pillow or stuffed animal, hugging a pet (should you have one), performing self-massage, masturbating, or wrapping yourself up in a heavy blanket.

A weighted blanket would be perfect for the current situation, as the added pressure makes you feel secure and calm.

“You may have to be creative based on your physical ability, but ultimately the point is to spend some extra time in affectionate contact with your skin,” sex and relationship therapist, Shadeen Francis, told Allure.

And, while Zoom calls and text messages don’t replace the feeling of a hug, maintaining your relationships virtually will keep you feeling connected to your loved ones when you can’t be with them in person.

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3-1-23: Parenting isnt

Parenting doesn’t mean you give them fake smile when everything is clearly broken into pieces. Parenting doesn’t mean you can change the reality with a great cuisine and a big party.

Truth lies in the ocean of lies. Thinking is an act of understanding the truth around us. Some people know how to think and some don’t. Those who never try to strive out of this endless cycle of lies never farewell. Some people just want to live a beautiful lie than live a harsh truth.

3-1-23: not to love

It’s not ‘love’ that you don’t want.

It’s all the falseness.

The drama.

The pettiness.

The pretending you care.

The having to remember things that mean absolutely nothing.

The having to act like you are madly in love when you are around other couples.

And so many other things that are soul destroying.

So yes. It is OK that you have questioned the validity of the lies they have drip fed us since birth.

But you see, we had an economy to expand. We needed to think of something. And ‘love’, had a nice ring to it. So we ran with it.

3-1-23: Not perfect

Nature has not made anything straight. It has perfectly made everyone uneven and no two things similar. So there is no one imperfect. Human beings invented a straight line and thereafter want to make everything straight like straight roads, buildings, furniture, clothes and what not. Then they regret when they find something not straight. It is their own created problem. So you are perfectly alright and enjoy life.

3-1-23: character over appearance

I dream of a day when people are not judged by the color of their skin (physical appearance), but by the content of their character.” MLK

3-1-23: Is money important or not

Is money important?

1. Ask this to The Rich politician who has already booked his bed in aiims while the whole nation is crying due to its shortage.
2. Ask this to The rich businessman who has already bought 50 oxygen cylinders for his family in case of emergency while people are dying due to lack of oxygen
3. Ask this to The tv star kids, who are enjoying their holidays in foreign destination while migrant laborers have to walk 1600 kms by foot to reach their homes.
4. Ask this to The actors who have already got a shot of sputnik while the whole country is lacking enough covishield or covaxine till now.
5. Ask this to The doctors (like me) who are unsure whether they will get a bed in the same hospital they have worked for years.
6. Ask this to the middle class young girl, who lost her mother because they couldn't afford ECMO for more than 3 days ( ECMO costs 6L/day)
7. Ask this to the middle class boy, who lost his father, because they couldn't afford the pvt hospital fees anymore and had to transfer him to a govt hospital, where sufficient facilities were not available.
8. Ask this to the newly wed husband, who lost his wife because he couldn't afford any more of ramdesivir injections.
9. Ask this To the newly wed wife, who lost her husband because they couldn't afford any more toculizumab injections.
10. Ask this to the poor family, who couldn't afford to go to a pvt clinic and got only paracetamol and vitamin tablets from govt setup and now has CT score of 25/25,which will eventually lead to death.
11. Ask this to the daily laborers and auto walas, richshaw walas, street vendors who cannot afford any more lockdwon or they will die of hunger anyways.

Ask this to my country, which once again proved, that the one will wealth and power will prevail over the poor and unprivileged..

You will get your answer, is money important or not?

3-1-23: Who will stand by you

Just try any of these out in your life.

Fail an exam. Lose all your money. Fall sick. You broke up. you met an accident . you lost a closed one.

Let everyone know your situation.See who all are there with you after knowing your situations. Few will stand by you. Most will leave . Among those few most of the times your family will be there with you.

When we are young we value freedom and rebel out against society, family and parents . Our parents were too like us when they were young😂. As we age We realize the perspectives of parents and others and we start valuing family more. Its all normal and natural 

3-1-23: Family Quarrel

This is going to be raw and painful for me, but here goes.

4 years back I divorced my husband of 21 years. We had 8 kids together & home churched & home schooled.

My family (also my church family) pulled the plug. I was on my own, no one from my Christian community would touch me with a 10’ stick for fear of “catching” whatever caused my marriage to go awry.

Being estranged from my family & friends put me into severe depression. I didn't have a net to fall into, so I lay there, in bed day after day, only rising to do what HAD to get done. I went to a therapist and a psychiatrist, but nothing was enough. I was alone, I focused on my solitude and I stayed in my deep misery. I went into hospital for the psychological ward one night, in hopes that someone would finally save me from my hell —but they didn't. I was sent home (relieved!) to my children who were terrified mommy was so ill she was going to die.

No one was going to save me.

No saviour was there at the right moment.

No god in the heavens was concerned for me.

I was on my own.

What changed? How did I pull through?

•After realizing just how truly blessed I am to have these beautiful people (my kids) in my life I slowly became grateful for them, again. I cherished and cared for their problems, along with mine.

•After abandoning my responsibilities as the caretaker of my home I took account of how fortunate I am to have a shelter. I have been painting, cleaning, and organizing little by little.

•After laying in my bed, exhausted from merely living, I forced myself to accept my pain as worthy, accept my suffering as long enough, and forgive myself for grieving the loss of so many dreams; I started to live again. Losing my extended family through ignorance & theism has brought me to a new level of understanding.

•Humans are assholes. I'm not going to conform! I'm going to be the mom I wish I'd had as a child. I'm going to be the friend I wish I'd had. I'm going to be the person I fantasize about becoming —right now! —not “when I'm ________ enough”!

Now is the moment!

• I became completely honest with myself. No more lying, “it's only a piece of cake” when it's the 3rd piece. Nor, “I can't stop smoking cigarettes, I need them for this stress” business. If I knew it was bad, I admitted and quit it. It was hard!

• I started listening to my body a bit more. My body’s response to my drinking alcoholic drinks was severe lethargy, aches, pain and wouldn't you know it, depression! I had to fess up to myself & stop playing the part of the victim to quit. I'd been a victim far too long & no one had ever rescued me. I had to rescue me!!!

•And, I joined a group therapy 2 months ago & it's been so good for me!

I hope you good speed, consistency, strength & wisdom to pull you through! Find a good therapist [don't stop ‘til it's a good fit!], keep your closest friend (s) and become your own best, most reliable friend. Fall in love with yourself. Love you! (I listened to a lot of meditations from the Insight Timer app called “Living Awake” to forgive and start to love me.)

It will work!