I just ate and ate and don't think well.
My head is.... Empty.
I watched a video where a man in America got an injury on the head caused by bang or accident suddenly turned into a genius who's able to solve complex Mathematical problems and became a physicist himself.
I wish things were as easy as that...
What am I really good at...
I think about what other family think of me when I didn't attend the grandparent transfer of burial gathering. Maybe they think bad of me all the more.
I feel like a freeloader.
Because I don't give anything in return.
When I attend parties, I couldn't give love properly or talk well to the host.
Maybe it is because I don't have money. That's why I don't feel secured.
My debt to my mother is increasing.
How much money should I pay for all the damages? Because everyday I don't cook or don't do the household chores and just lie down on the bed.
It is stupid of me not to record or count everything I received.
I don't want to have a debt. So I want to return everything.
Everyone thinks of me I am poor because I don't have money.
I didn't think of myself that way but keeping on repeating such idea in my mind makes me think I am poor.
Anyway, I don't want to be dragged into situations anymore. It is better to say no.
If there was an attractive job, I could have grabbed it immediately.
But none really attracts me like a magnet.........
Time passes by every second and everyday I always lose.
I couldn't love my family.
Because they always laugh and joke.
And their attire looks like a...
Maybe it is my fault not having a big heart to love everybody.
My brother's birthday. I didn't like how others celebrate my brother's birthday because it is bad.
Barbecue
I don't want to eat but in the end I couldn't manage it and have no choice but to survive. I feel my character is ruined when I eat my mother's food.
Roasted fish
Velvet cake
Lechon from aunt
Shrimp..