So... I rarely voice out my opinions on Facebook and what I think of the people around me.
When I look at the photos, I tend to feel a little jealousy and doubts dashing to my mind. Like why I wasn't there with them. Or, why is he or she in the picture, I don't want to see him. She is so ugly. I know that it's so negative. I just feel that I lack influence over the lives of the people around me. I want to feel valued and heard. I just miss it when I was having fun laughing a lot with my friends in the past. Yes, I don't have friends now. They do not contact me and they are so busy with their lives. Why would they contact me when they already have their own family or boyfriend to value them and do things together with them?
Now as an adult, I now have different fun. Like watch other males' hotdog on camera. They said that it's not something to be felt bad of because it's a gift from God. Oh well, you have to convince me with that. I'm afraid that if I continue to watch it, my head will be all about dicks especially that I easily think of what is banned or not allowed and I definitely do not want to be called a whore.
I know I sound so serious and boring. All the tone changes when I listen to a different music like this: