Now is 11:57 AM. At 12:30 AM, I will go out to meet my mother and then go to the university to borrow books in the library.
I have many books I want to read. The books I read have the folloiwng topic:
Japanese culture
English language
Interpersonal Communication
Translation
Linguistics
I really enjoy reading them, as long as they are well-written.
When I read them, I take down important terms. I worry about forgetting them after I read it. What I'm so sad about is nobody else around me are interested in them. And when I talk to them about it, they don't listen. I think I need to talk with people I enjoy to be with. For example, the Japanese people. When I talk with Japanese people, I become very very active. But sometimes I worry about them seeing me as too talkative or inconsiderate of their needs.
Now I have one Japanese girl friend. She is 2 years older than I. And we take up the same course. She will stay here for 1 year and will go back to Japan after that. My Korean friend adviced me to talk with her often, and invite her to lunch perhaps. In addition, she told me, "time is too short to be shy."
This Japanese girl friend of mine is ideal for me. I want to ask her more about Japan, especially in the field of education. When I talk or listen about Japan, I really become energized. I want to go to Japan someday and have many Japanese friends and even have Japanese boy friend. I want to experience Japanese culture, like in an onsen, or visit Japanese houses and meet and talk with Japanese families. I really like Japan. I want to talk with Japanese so much.
In fact, the reason I took up BSED-English is I want to be a really good English teacher. When I teach, I want to teach with passion, spirit and sincerity. I want to have good relationship with my students. I want to share my students my insights about Japanese spirit. But now, I don't feel so much the energy. I mean, I think my environment is not so good. Many of my classmates don't like what they do. Then, I also don't feel the passion from my teachers. I was given opportunity to speak to the public through an organization, but I felt so nervous and I thought I need to improve more. The thing I want to change the most is my exclusive mindset. Now I'm working to change it little by little by meeting foreigners. Foreigners are so curious and interested to know Filipino culture. I am a Filipino myself, but honestly, I don't feel so fascinated by it. That's because I don't see what other people see in it.
Anyway, it's almost time. I wish I can do the things I really like to do before I graduate this course. Subjects in this course are really interesting. But there are some professors who don't seem to love it. Many classmates don't love it also. All I can do now is to rely on my own. Bye