back to reality

today I must go back to reality, start thinking about reality.

not that I was in any dream, but

I was living in protected world for the past 9 days and 10 nights.

あの人に近づく方法があるとしたら、

それは仕事を頑張るしかない気がする。

この状態のままでは何も変わらないから。

本当は残るもよし、変えるもよし、決めたほうを頑張ればよいのだと思う。

ただ、現実は今どちらも結構厳しい・・・。

I have this urge, this rush to grab the first ticket out,

but I don't think it will be wise to do so now.

because what I want is not a WAY OUT,

but a WAY to move FORWARD.