こんにちは
今日は土曜日ですね
退院までもうすぐです
来週の火曜日に新生活の買い物があって、まだ曜日は決まってないけど家族と辞める不動産の仕事と駐車場の管理方法の変更についての話し合いがあります
自律援護支援寮に2年間入るわけですが、少し安心しています
なぜかと言うと、今まで家族（特に親）との距離が近すぎて干渉がすごかったからです
ストレスの原因でした
毎週火曜日に主治医の診察があったらその日の夜に何があったかを晩御飯の時間に家族に報告する、それに加えて毎週土曜日に家族と強制食事会
息が詰まりそうでストレスでした
仲良いんだね、と言われそうだけど、僕は逆で放って欲しいのでストレスの原因でした
今までしていた不動産の仕事も辞めたし（もう今月から辞めました）、給料も入ってきません
収入はどうするかと言うと駐車場の管理者なのでその給料だけで生活していきます
金額で言うと今まで年収480万円だったのが200万円ぐらいにガバッと減ります
今度から豪遊できませんね
今までは、毎日ドトール行って1杯350円のLサイズのアイスコーヒーを値段気にしないで飲んでいました
それを1年で計算すると350円×365＝127750円だそうです
それに加えて食事は毎朝ドトールのモーニングセット800円と晩御飯は1食1200円の大戸屋を食べて1日2000円かかっていました
それも1年で計算すると730000円だそうです
たぶんもっと食費がかかっていたと思います
ファミレスのガストで会計で1食2000円の時もあったので
と思ったけど、あれ？73万円？食費かかりすぎでは？
1ヶ月6万円か
さすがに3食外食だとお金かかりますね
実は食べるの苦手なんですよね
苦しみながら「腸活しなきゃ」と思って無理に食事していました
自炊は今のところできないのと皿洗いがめんどくさいので毎食コンビニになりそうですね
この間5泊6日体験外泊した時は毎朝おにぎり1個とパン1個でした
これぐらいがちょうど良いかもしれないです
自律援護寮に入ったら食が細くて痩せそうですね
今でも標準体重だからそんな痩せなくても平気なんですが
年収が半分になるから毎日ドトールも行けなくなりそうですね
贅沢三昧な暮らしはまだあったんです
それは、なんと毎日温泉に行っていたんです
これはやばいですね
入浴料が700円とバスタオルのレンタル代220円で約1000円
これが毎日で1年間で365000円
やば
住んでた自宅が嫌いでなるべく家に帰りたくなかったんですが、その家と言うのは、どうやら三角形の土地みたいなんです
縦に細長い家で、なぜかあの家に住むと体調が悪くなるんです
場所はいいんですが建物に難ありだと思いました
それでも自室の子供部屋おじさんの部屋のエアコンも2年ぐらい前に新しくしたし、部屋の広さは広いんですが、なぜか体調が崩れる怖い家でした
もう住みたく無いですね
その怖い家と、家族との過干渉が精神的ストレスでかなりきつかったです
今は入院中で家族とも距離があり助かっています
していた不動産の仕事はもともと祖母がやっていて祖母の死をきっかけに僕が継ぎました
2011年の東日本大震災をきっかけに統合失調症になったんですが、その間も不動産の仕事を続けさせてもらったんですがだいぶ助かりました
給料40万円だとだいぶ贅沢できますね
今度から給料が18万円になるので節約とかしていかないとなあ
去年まで働いていたから今年の税金払うのしんどいなあとか思います
生きていくのって大変ですね
それでも今日楽しいことがあって、SpotifyのBoys Group Japanと言うプレイリストで男性グループの曲を聞いて過ごしました
普段、次の転職に備えなきゃ、と思ってITの勉強を苦手ながらもしているんですがほんと難しいですね
パソコンってきちんと勉強しようとするとどこまでも知識が深くなるからほんと難しいなあ
今のところ目標はLINUXの初心者向けの資格と、ITパスポートの資格に合格したいです
できればいいなあ
今日聞いたMy First StoryのThe Crownがすごく良くて感動しました
聞いたら元気が出ました
すごいおすすめです
Good afternoon.
Today is Saturday.
I'm almost ready to get out of the hospital.
I have shopping for my new life next Tuesday, and I don't have a set day of the week yet, but I have a meeting with my family about the real estate job I'm leaving and a change in how I manage the parking lot.
I'm going to be in an autonomous support dormitory for two years, and I'm a little relieved!
The reason why is because I have been too close to my family, especially my parents, and there has been a lot of interference!
It was a source of stress.
Every Tuesday when I had my doctor's appointment, I had to report to my family at dinner time what had happened that night, and on top of that, every Saturday I had a mandatory dinner with my family.
It was suffocating and stressful.
If you had a doctor's appointment every Tuesday, you'd report to your family at dinner time what happened that night, plus a mandatory dinner with your family every Saturday.
It was suffocating and stressful.
You might say, “You get along well with them,” but I'm the opposite, I want to be left alone, so it was a source of stress for me.
I quit the real estate job I was doing (I already quit this month) and I'm not getting paid.
I'm a parking lot manager, so I have to live on that salary.
In terms of money, my annual income will drop from 4.8 million yen to about 2 million yen.
From now on, I can't afford to have a lot of money.
Until now, I used to go to Doutor every day and drink an L-size iced coffee for 350 yen per cup without worrying about the price.
If I calculate that for a year, it comes out to 350 yen x 365 = 12,775 yen!
In addition to that, I ate a morning set of 800 yen at Doutor every morning and 1200 yen at Ootoya for dinner, which cost me 2000 yen a day.
That's 7,300,000 yen a year!
I probably spent more on food than that.
There was a time when I was paying 2,000 yen per meal at Gusto, a family restaurant.
I thought, “But, what, 730,000 yen? Isn't that too much for food?
60,000 yen a month?
As you can imagine, eating out for three meals costs a lot of money.
Actually, I'm not very good at eating.
I was forcing myself to eat while I was suffering, thinking “I have to do intestinal activities”.
I can't cook for myself at the moment, and washing dishes is a pain in the ass, so I'll probably end up eating at a convenience store for every meal.
When I stayed out for 5 nights and 6 days, I ate one rice ball and one piece of bread every morning.
I think this is about right.
I'm sure you'll eat very little and lose weight once you enter the dormitory.
I'm still a normal weight, so I don't need to lose that much weight.
But my income will be cut in half, so I won't be able to go to Doutor every day.
But there was more to my luxurious lifestyle.
He went to a spa every day!
That's not good.
The bathing fee was 700 yen and the bath towel rental fee was 220 yen, so about 1,000 yen.
That's 365,000 yen every day for a year!
Oh no!
I hated the house I was living in and didn't want to go home as much as possible, but the house seemed to be a triangle-shaped piece of land.
The house is long and narrow, and for some reason, I feel ill when I live in that house.
The location of the house is nice, but I thought the building is difficult to maintain.
Even so, the air conditioner in my room and my uncle's room was renewed about 2 years ago, and the rooms are spacious, but for some reason, it was a scary house that made me feel sick.
I don't want to live there anymore.
I don't want to live there anymore. The scary house and the over-interference with my family caused me a lot of mental stress.
Now I'm in the hospital, so I have some distance from my family, which is a big help.
The real estate business I was working in was originally my grandmother's business, and I took over after her death.
I became schizophrenic after the Great East Japan Earthquake in 2011, but I was able to continue working in real estate during that time, and it helped me a lot.
With a salary of 400,000 yen, I can afford to be extravagant.
From now on, my salary will be 180,000 yen, so I will have to save money.
I think it will be hard to pay this year's taxes since I was working until last year.
It is very hard to survive.
Still, I had some fun today and spent some time listening to a playlist of male groups on Spotify called Boys Group Japan!
I'm usually trying to study IT to prepare for my next job change, even though I'm not very good at it, but it's really difficult!
It's really difficult to learn about computers, because the more you try to learn, the deeper your knowledge gets.
My current goal is to pass the LINUX beginner's certification and the IT Passport certification.
I hope I can do it!
I heard My First Story's The Crown today and was very impressed with how good it was!
It cheered me up!
I highly recommend it!
