언제부터 이렇게 마음이 약해졌을까
예전에는 어떻게 그렇게 강했을까
누군가 있어주면 좋지
있어주니까 강해질수있고 덜외럽고
근데 한번 그 사람이 떠나버리면
예전만큼 강해질 순 없나봐
너무 허전하고 외롭고
혼자 잠조차 잘 수가 없어지나봐
its 2:30am
i know its quite late and i should get some sleep.cause i am exstremely tired and still have lots to do tomorrow.but somehow i kinda feel like staying up a little while more.maybe its because i dont want my friday night to be over yet.
So today was my 5th day and also first friday as an unversity student.I fotunately got to see 지영 from KARA at campus this afternoon. she was pretty even she wore no make up. and i went out with some of my new friends after my last class of entire week which is the groval culturures experience seminor. we had korean syabushyabu and after that we did some execises at karaoke. it was fun, yes was fun but not like when i go with my old friends. i know this is common feeling which people always feel when they are surrounded by so many "new"s. but i hate this feeling so bad especially when there is no way to go back. i hate to realize how much i had when its all gone. i hate the lonelyness after the fun time.
this week i have been busy for knowing and getting used to those "new"s(new home, new town, new school, new friend...) and even registrating classes gave me extra stress on me.
but now my class schdule is completely setted up and i think i got it almost as i wanted. i have six classes in korean and three in english.i also going to study some basic of chinese which is pretty exciting too.
now all i have to do is study hard and get more than C on the average to go on to the second semester.
its never gonna be easy and I might also gonna have some difficulties in making friendships with korean students.
however im excited and motivated at least for now. and thats pretty much why im using english now.lol
i felt kinda left behind in some of classes this week because of the language.in korean class there are many of other foreigh student but they are not really foreighers.
some of them spent all high school year in korea and even some have spent almost entire of their life in here. ofcourse they speak really good korean like pretty much the same as native speakers do. and its quite the same in classes whivh are teached in english too. most of korean in those classed are like grew up in other countries and went to international schools or some of them went study abroad like when they are really small.and they major english so ofcourse they have to be pretty good at it. so, its obvious that im going to have a hard time but all i need is to get Cs. thats why i chose to be in this situation rather than to get scared of being left behind in classes and missed great oppotunity to get highly skilled education..you know because we paid so much money for that, so.
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
wish me luck
this is just the beginning.
next week hopefully i will get done with some complex duties which i couldnt finnish this week and be afford to enjoy campus life.
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i know its quite late and i should get some sleep.cause i am exstremely tired and still have lots to do tomorrow.but somehow i kinda feel like staying up a little while more.maybe its because i dont want my friday night to be over yet.
So today was my 5th day and also first friday as an unversity student.I fotunately got to see 지영 from KARA at campus this afternoon. she was pretty even she wore no make up. and i went out with some of my new friends after my last class of entire week which is the groval culturures experience seminor. we had korean syabushyabu and after that we did some execises at karaoke. it was fun, yes was fun but not like when i go with my old friends. i know this is common feeling which people always feel when they are surrounded by so many "new"s. but i hate this feeling so bad especially when there is no way to go back. i hate to realize how much i had when its all gone. i hate the lonelyness after the fun time.
this week i have been busy for knowing and getting used to those "new"s(new home, new town, new school, new friend...) and even registrating classes gave me extra stress on me.
but now my class schdule is completely setted up and i think i got it almost as i wanted. i have six classes in korean and three in english.i also going to study some basic of chinese which is pretty exciting too.
now all i have to do is study hard and get more than C on the average to go on to the second semester.
its never gonna be easy and I might also gonna have some difficulties in making friendships with korean students.
however im excited and motivated at least for now. and thats pretty much why im using english now.lol
i felt kinda left behind in some of classes this week because of the language.in korean class there are many of other foreigh student but they are not really foreighers.
some of them spent all high school year in korea and even some have spent almost entire of their life in here. ofcourse they speak really good korean like pretty much the same as native speakers do. and its quite the same in classes whivh are teached in english too. most of korean in those classed are like grew up in other countries and went to international schools or some of them went study abroad like when they are really small.and they major english so ofcourse they have to be pretty good at it. so, its obvious that im going to have a hard time but all i need is to get Cs. thats why i chose to be in this situation rather than to get scared of being left behind in classes and missed great oppotunity to get highly skilled education..you know because we paid so much money for that, so.
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
wish me luck
this is just the beginning.
next week hopefully i will get done with some complex duties which i couldnt finnish this week and be afford to enjoy campus life.
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おわり。
きのうは語学堂の修了式。
もう韓国にきて約一年。
入れ替わり立ち代わりめまぐるしくたくさんの人と出会っては別れた一年。
さよならの度にこころが空っぽになってさみしかったけど、だれかに出会う度に世界が広くなるみたいだった。
たくさんのことを学んで、現実を知って、自分の未熟さを思い知った一年だった。すごく悩んだ一年だった。
でもだからこそ誇りに思う。19から20になる特別な一年をここで過ごせたことを誇りに思える。
でもかっこよく振り返るにはまだ時間がかかりそう。今はたださみしい。
知らない町。新しい家。
見慣れない顔に囲まれてただたださみしい。
ワイファイひとつうまくつながらないと誰とも話せない。
嫌いだな終わりも始まりも。
でも繰り返していくしかないんだけどさ。
ありがとう。出会ってくれて。
知らない世界を見せてくれて。
忘れませんきっと。
I miss you
I love you more than i did before
And if today i dont see your face
Nothing change and no one can take place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more you did before
And im sorry its this way
But Im coming home ill be coming home
And if you ask me i will stay
I will stay i always stay
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