xxx

I'm so sick and tired of this all.

I feel so lonely now a days for no reason.

So lonely...Lonely.

Shit goes bad when I get lonely.

Like.

Nothing bad happens, but I make it seem like it is.

I hate feeling like this.

I just miss you, okay?

Why..

Why isn't anything happening...When I see you?

But why is it..it responded when I said how much I missed you?

I don't get it.

Maybe it's because I've seen you so many times, that I'm used to it?

It wasn't like a month ago where I didn't see you in ages so it went crazy.

But.

I miss you, even if I do see you, after you're gone I feel lonely again, and I want to see your smiling face again.

Tomorrow is SuG TV. Seriously, they're the only thing that isn't making me feel so lonely lately.

They make me smile and laugh.

I'm still really pissed off no one recorded the one on the 30th.

I wish I could cry, but I don't feel like crying.

I just keep on wishing as to when I'm going to be able to see you.

Again.

Once more.

I hope something good happens on the 19th of November.

I'm still keeping my hopes up I'll see SuG on the 13th.

I'm not letting my hopes down.

I feel like I have a chance.

xxx