So Confused

so memai!!! Antara nahan ngantuk juga nahan kesakitan.. antara nahan nafsu karena puasa akhirnya goyah dan mendengarkan Memai by SID sebanyak 2x! parah! padahal gue tau bgt arti dari lagu itu! mau jadi apa gue coba?? ==' kenapa gue bisa dengerin lagu itu.. gila! puyeng bgt! biasanya gue bisa dengerin lagu itu hampir tiap hari.. tapi kudu di stop karena bulan puasa.. gue suka lagu memai by SID tapi gue SANGAT BENCI ARTI LAGI DARI ITU. ngebayanginnya aja gue gak mau! walaupun Shinji yg ngelakuin sekalipun! astagfirullah! gue ngebayangin yang gakgak iyaiya.. PARAH! tapi jujur gue suka bgt! Shinji mainnya keren bgt! biasalah.. gue klau udah nyangkut2 masalah gitaris SID yang super KAWAI itu susah bgt lepasnya! maklum lah.. dia bishi gue sekarang ini.. dimana2 ngomongin dia mulu! maklumlah.. XDDD

uhhh!!! >/////< Kawai bgt!!!!! gilaaaa gue suka bgt ma ni orang! dia juga yg jadi cowok gue d fb loh! ^0^/ gue gak boong! dia asli Shinji Ninomiya! walaupun dia gak pernah balas komen gue tp gue ttp senang dia nerima gue jadi pacarnya sebanyak 3x! ahhh~ dia ternyata lebih ke arah tindakan daripada komen gue super gaje dan maunya sih romantis tapi malas malu-maluin.. ehheeee... maaf yah Shinji-kun.. *kisu2*

tapi asli gue sering bgt mimpiin dia! thank Allah SWT yang selalu menghadirkan dia dalam mimpi gue! gue bahagia bgt! semoga lain kali gue bisa kirim pesan ke dia dan mengatakan bahwa gue suka bgt ma dia.. padahal gue juga suka nyemangatin dia lewat komen2 yang gue kirim k wall nya.. semoga dia mengerti dan tetapi semangat setelah baca wall gue (walaupun gue cuma merasakan) XDDD

manly?? SANGATTTT dia sangat cowok!!! tampangnya itu.. tapi kadang kemacoannnya pudar gara2 tingkah laku gaje si yuuya yang nemplok ke dia.. ==' parah bgt si Yuuya itu.. kaga tau apa si Shinji lagi manis2nya.. tapi dia kadang2 kasar loh! mungkin kebiasaannya yah.. ^^'

yaudah.. sukses deh buat SID untuk Jack in the Box 2010! semoga Shinjinya makin ganteng dan kawaii! semoga cepet2 ada laporannya gue pengen cipokin pikunya!! nyahahaahahaaa... *ketauan* XDDD

White Cloud

My heart like cloud, sometimes it colour could black or white.. it all based from my heart. like this cloud.. if i see it I feel want to have a wing and flying to the sky, enter the another sky in the world. But i just human, no wings, but I have a lot of dream who can bring me to my fantasy without end.

Cloud.. I want to ask, does him see the cloud same like me? can u bring my heart to him? can you tell me if I need him? can you help me? I always read his blog, same like I wrote this blog he uploaded the cloud as my feeling in the past. can I understand his heart? he feel alone.. I can feel it.. but why he never talk to another people if he feel alone? i can help him if he ask to me.. hahahaha... its just in dream, in dream all of memory in real life enter to my mind and draw in my dream.. I miss him so much, can he know my heart? i hope he doesnt want be a black heart..