Yaaayyy
Finally I passed the Thesis Defense
So...
Now, I officially graduated from Keio
I knew this result 2 days ago
but today, I just have time to update my blog
So, after 2 year working hard, now, I'm a Master
Congratulation to myself
Really studying Master in Keio is not an easy task, especially in Human Security program...
It was so much stress and pressure
When I was writing my thesis, I was really really really stressed out... I even cried a lot because of stress and pressure...
I was really depressed and frustrated... That feeling was so scary...
At that time, I was just wishing that time will pass soon... I was exhausted...
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It's so unbelievable when I cried while writing a thesis....
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Yeah
I survive
I'm a fighting girl and a survivor
Proud of myself
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Lately I have been studying Japanese.....
With this slow speed, I start worrying that if my Japanese will be improved enough for me to go for job hunting...
And on this Friday, I will have an interview with Keio SFC international office, so that they will issue a letter of recommendation for me to extend my Visa for 1 more year for the sake of job hunting....
Nervous
Wish myself all the best luck
Yesterday I went to Senjijo in Asakusa
Hope all my wishes will come true
Let keep trying my best and hope for the best
Today is my Thesis Defense day
Yaaaayyy... I finished it
It's OVER
My stressful time is OVER
Professors asked so many questions
Even though I was a little bit confused when they asked, I think I did a good job in Q & A part...
Yaaaaayyyy... Finally I'm done
Still have to wait for the result, but I think I'm surely passed
I have confident in my performance today
It's not the best, but it's good enough Yaaaayyyy... Now, let give myself a short break
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Today, after we finished our presentation, we went to Shinyurigaoka to have lunch + dinner....
It was a good time.... We were relaxed and happy
2 years of our hard work...
Congratulations
Today is Tuesday... This is the 2nd day I studied at this new Japanese language school...
It's too boring... They put me into a basic class with all those bastards...
Those people are really annoying... They keep talking in class and making the class super noisy, so that I can't even hear the teacher's voice...
The worst part is that they keep talking in their language...
And most of those bastards are from my own country... OMG... So ashamed...
I don't even wanna let them know that I'm from the same country with them...
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About the lessons.... OMG... It's boring...
The way they teach is so slow... 1 day we just learn only 1 new grammar... In comparison with the old school, we even studied 2-3 new grammar a day...
And in the class, I don't even have a chance to speak up... How can I practice my speaking skill
With the speed like this, I don't know until when I can speak Japanese...
This class really makes me stressed so much...
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Besides, the problems with my Research fellow application procedure is stagnant... So does the VISA process...
And I still have the final presentation on January 29th... Haven't prepared for it...
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I see that the first month of 2014 is not a good month for me...
January, my birth month...
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Everything keeps killing me... I feel so exhausted...
My body is gonna be collapsed... I feel tired... really tired...
Just can't breathe... Always have headache...
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My life is a collection of struggling stories
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慶ちゃん、入所日１４年目おめでとう～ It's 14 years already ne
I'm really thankful when JE let a wonderful person like Kei-chan debut even though NEWS has been through so many troubles...
Kei-chan is a wonderful person...
He loves people and always think about the others before himself... I'm glad that I have known him in my life...
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Some Kei-chan's fans has said that Kei-chan is too nice, he always tries his best to support and promote his members... It's a sweet side of him, but it somehow makes himself the least famous member in NEWS...
Yes, I agree with it... Sometimes I get mad at Kei-chan's "Too nice" side too...
Because I have never met Kei-chan in real life, I don't know who he really is... I can't say anything... But deep inside my heart, I think that I can feel him...
Kei-chan and I have the same lifestyle... So, I understand...
But...
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As a Kei-chan's fan, I admit that I'm selfish... I just wanna protect Kei-chan...
Seeing him get lost behind TM hurts me so badly...
I don't wanna be aggressive like this... but I just can't help...
Love is selfish... I love Kei-chan... I care about him... Of course, I always want him to get all the best things in the world...
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Lately, TM's fans have been celebrating their new album...
But... I just wanna ignore it...
That's why I haven't been on Twitter as often as before...
And I won't be there during TM tour either...
Seeing fans go crazy over TM makes me mad... And if it keeps going like that, my hatred for TM will come to me again...
I don't wanna be against TM...
So, I think I better keep distant with NEWS and TM fandom during this time...
This time, I won't buy TM new album...
I'm a NEWS fan and Kei-chan's fan... There is no point for me to waste my money on TM stuffs...
I will still ballot tickets for TM concert because I love music... Even if I will not enjoy it as much as NEWS concert, it may still make me relaxed...
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