my body is a girl, but im not a girl. in real life, men approaches me.. i do like men and love men. but if they approach me as a girl, im not in love with them. because they fall in love with a false me. this is a big dilemma of my life. i cant act as a girl like nothing happened.. eventhough life should be easier if i can act and enjoy, i like men anyway. but no..
this body is wrong. and i feel alot uneasy to be trapped in here..
some of them like to molest too when im off guard. its just.. im so disgusted and desperate.
its like.. this body is already raping me by trapping me inside and makes me become a really fragile being, needs to be protected (girl). and yet, boys wanted to sex/molest me because of their imagination about this GIRL body. im disgusted, desperate.. i hate this.. why should i appear here. in a girl body........
ever since that moment.. i turned gay. i stop loving girls.. i look for men who loves boys too.. but.. my body is a girl. they cant love me because i looked this way.. i love men. but men who loves me will be straight.. because i looked this way.. if they are straight, then its no point.. they dont love me, they love my body and how i act.. they cant see me.. im covered inside this false body. help.....