i think i have told before about my best buddy tea.
he really is a gentle and caring person.. a golden heart to me..
yesterday in 1 pico last day, i was so sad because its the last day and yet i still cant see barr..
we do meet on 2 days before pico closed. but yes, on that day we still disagree each other..
i really tried to tell him that im not lying.. i dont lie to him..
well i do lied before, about my nationality, and age.. but nothing more.
well, he still dont believe me.. he's still angry.. and worst of all.. he blocked me again in facebook. also closed his room.. both in pico and pigg.. refuse to receive message..
seems like he blocked me too in pigg..
i dont know.. things left unsolved. sometimes im a bit upset because he ended up leaving me with this misunderstood..
im pointed as a liar while im not lying.. i find this disturbing my mind because.. i still think that this is not fair to be ended up like this..
phew..
i dont know..
i cant contact him though.. and if i appear, its maybe only increase his anger..
back to tea.. he stayed with me in pico last day... i respect and value him..
im happy he valued me.. in return, i really want to make him happy.. do my best to him as a buddy.
im happy too that he introduce me to many new fellas.. all are good.. some are funny xD
haha. well i met saruyama too..
he is a kind and gentle man too.. i learned that he is broken too, just like me. i really want to protect my buddies.. keep us happy and alive. i will treasure tea and saruyama always.
hope i could do well and meet tea and saru in future.. my buddies.
its not that i dont have a life in trusting internet relationship.
internet is just a media to me.. a very limited one. of course i demand wider access in real life.
people in internet exist in real life too anyway.. we can easily meet in internet, but its not impossible to arrange more serious appointment in real life :D
im eager to be success.. for that, i believe that everything is still possible.. it maybe tough.. or not. lets just pray.
(sorry for my english, im still practicing)