I have been quite into Pewdiepie lately. Must have watched over a hundred of his videos now.
He is a few days younger than me, but more successful than I can ever dream to be. Will I ever become successful, even by my own low standards? It seems so far away, and I'm not young anymore. Age is just a number, height is just a number, I feel like these are weighing me down way too much.
I ought to only be concerned with what I have control over, and those are absolutely not things I can control.
I keep criticising some of my friends for being desperate for a girlfriend, but it seems like I myself am also yearning for one badly. What a hypocrite.
I need my house so badly. If I have it I'm certain that I will be content with being a forever alone.
I wish there can be another miracle encounter like with the Princess at the design class.
I miss her so badly. How long will she continue to torture me? It is so unfair that I have to suffer so much. I just want it to be over. Please.
God, please end my suffering. I beg of you. What do I have to do for the suffering to end? At least drop me a hint. I will do it.