Three nights ago, I watched an anime movie about planetarium. That was probably what prompted me to write that entry about stars and moon.
I was reminded of my visit to the Singapore Science Centre two years ago.
It was one of my many dates with the Princess that month. We went with the intention to visit just the observatory, but ended up watching a show and tell session in the planetarium. We were lost in the centre for a while, looking for the observatory. In the end I saw a door and just decided to push it open and enter it. The talk was already in session, but I grabbed the Princess and got seated somewhere high up and enjoyed the rest of the talk.
That night was my first planetarium and observatory visit, too, despite me being such a big fan of astronomy.
After the talk, I went to ask the presenter where the observatory was, and he asked me if I entered the planetarium without knowing. I said yes, feeling a little guilty about watching a free show.
After that, we went to the observatory. It was very dark, as stargazing requires dark surroundings. There was a pretty long queue. Many people came to look at Saturn.
We queued, all the while we were using the iPad app Star Walk 2, which she bought for me, to look at the position of stars in the sky. In the end, we managed to see Saturn through the telescope but not with the naked eye. The staff claimed to be able to see it in the sky though.
One of my favourite things in this world is starry night skies.
Just looking at starry skies makes me feel like all my problems are so trivial.
It's difficult to see stars in the Singapore night sky now, but when I was a teenage, they were still a fairly common sight.
The moon is beautiful, and mysterious. It only shows us one side of it, and hides the other half from us forever. That is strangely like people. People don't show others their inner, darker side, for they fear rejection.
I remember a certain girl telling me that she thought the moon emits its own light. In truth, the moon only shines because it reflects light off the sun, which is the nearest star from us. Without the sun, the moon won't shine brightly, if at all.
This can be said for people too. I was able to shine a little brighter thanks to some people.
I watched Planet Earth 2 two nights ago, and I was pleasantly surprised to see Singapore featured in it.
David Attenborough praised Singapore's green city model as one that all cities can aspire towards. Upon some research, it seems that it isn't as great as he made it out to be, but I do agree that there are plenty of greenery whenever I go.
I have visited a few other cities before, such as Shanghai, Kuala Lumpur, and most major cities in Japan. All of them are quite bleak. Just concrete gray everywhere.
According to him, the Supertrees have plenty of life on them. I'm not sure if this is true or not, but I didn't notice it when I visited them. I visited twice, first time was with the Princess of China, around National Day 2015. There were beautiful projections on the trees that night, and we laid on a bench and watched the projection with many other couples around us. I doubt I will ever forget that night. Every time I see the Supertrees I am reminded of her.
The more recent visit was when I brought my mum to Gardens by the Bay after my last finals. I went into the cloud and forest dome that time, which I didn't with the Heart Princess as she visited those with her relatives before. Those two comes were shown in Planet Earth 2 too.
David Attenborough is turning 94 this year I think. I have watched his BBC nature documentaries since I was a kid. I hope he stays healthy for much longer so I can watch more of his work.
Speaking of BBC, i haven't been keeping up with Sherlock. I wonder if the latest episode is out. The Moon Princess introduced it to me back in 2013, and I really loved it. Maybe I will check it out later.
I am still a few stops away from my workplace, but I ran out of things to talk about.
Last night I had a discussion with my friends of how I will like my house to be like. For less than half a million dollars, I can buy a 5-room HDB flat in Hougang or Punggol, so that will be my current goal. I want a treadmill, a bathtub, and a room with many different Bemani games but most importantly, a drumset for drummania. If I only use the master bedroom and rent out the other two rooms, I can make a passive income of $2000 or so. Not a bad plan.
A 5-room flat is too big for one person to live in though... I wonder if I will still be single at 35. 7 years is a long time, so much can happen in it. There isn't even a guarantee that I will still be alive then. I should treasure everyday as if it were my last.
I have always loved rainy days. On such days it's justifiable to just stay at home, be lazy, and sleep a lot.
A picture of Nex under dark clouds. I have to pass by Nex every day to and back from work, and it's my most visited shopping mall now. It will be so wonderful if I can stay at that condominium in the future.
Hello again, loyal reader. Are you even here, I wonder? Regardless...
I hope that you're doing well! Even if things are not going well, know that things will take a turn for the better eventually.
You will always have at least one person in this world who will always support you in everything you do. You are really beautiful and smart, but at the same time you are always very pessimistic. Learn to love yourself, and don't always focus on the bad things. 加油加油~
If things are already going well, then great! Hope it stays that way. You have earned it with all your hard work; from coming to SG, improving your English, applying for a masters, getting the TA, getting internships, I know just how much you went through. I was glad to see that you got what you deserved in the end. Remember to always enjoy life and do what you love!
I have always been grateful that you enjoyed reading about my boring life. I never understood why you liked it, but it really made me so happy. Not many people get to have a Princess to follow their blog so closely, right? There's no way for me to find out whether you still read my blog or not, or how you're doing now. Recently, I decided to start blogging again to continue chronicling my boring life. This is my diary, where I have been writing my current, honest thoughts since 2008 till now. If you still enjoy reading it, then I will occasionally talk to you through my blog. Maybe I will end up be talking to no one, but I'm okay with that. Even after all this time, I still think of you as a good friend of mine, so there are still some things I want to tell you, as a concerned friend. If you don't care at all, you don't have to read any of these.
I know that you can live life perfectly well even without me. You have gotten much stronger since the day we met. I hope you have learnt something from our failed relationship, and apply it to your current/future relationships, to prevent making the same mistakes. It's not easy to find someone who you can get along very well with, and it's also hard to find someone who will look pass all your flaws and love you for who you are. Treasure these people well. Don't avoid them just because you might get hurt. Sometimes you don't get a second chance.
As for me... well, you should know that I am a mentally strong person. You never have to worry about me. I am doing well now, as you would know if you have been reading my blog. I have become very appreciative of living since you showed me how wonderful life can be. I am finally recovering from the pain of your rejection. It took a long time, for it has been more than a year already, but I can feel my emotional wounds closing up nicely. Without a doubt, I have become a stronger person thanks to you. I have gained so much from meeting you. Even though our relationship didn't work out, it was a great one while it lasted, and I am grateful for it.
I have never blamed you for everything that happened, so you should never blame yourself too. I accept that fate did not side with us, that's all. I also understand perfectly well that I am too short, and not rich enough, for your parents to ever accept me.
I don't know if you understood why I decided to remove you from my life. There's a lot about me that you don't know, just like how there's a lot about you that I don't know. I now know that it's very hard for two people to truly understand each other. I assumed that I knew you well, but I couldn't be more wrong about that. Whether you understood the reason or not, you probably agree that it's better this way for the both of us, don't you?
Regardless of whatever happened, you are my precious friend, and I wish for you to be happy. Of course, this is not just you; I wish all of my friends to be happy too. However, you're especially special among all my friends, for the impact you made on my life. Also, you have always been such a sad person, so I can't help being concerned about you. If you think I am very 多管闲事, I can't deny that. It's just the kind of person I am. It's that part of my personality that compelled me to bring some waffles to you on a certain night many years ago.
If you're wondering about how I feel about you now... I lied to you about something in that last letter I sent you. I said I will stop loving you, and I did try my best to, but it seems like that's just too hard for me. You don't have to feel guilty about it though. It's no longer causing me any pain like it did before. As I said before, I am recovering well. I'm sure this feeling will go away fully someday, but it's just not now or soon.
Oh, I remembered something. Around Valentine's day time, Matt showed me something you posted on Facebook. You visited Osaka and played Jubeat in Shinsaibashi, didn't you? We would have been able to meet if I chose to work in Fujitsu. You seemed to have really enjoyed yourself from that post, which I am happy to see. I must admit that I was curious if you went there alone or with your new boyfriend, but I know that the answer will do me no good. It hurt me really badly when you told me that you didn't want to go Japan with me a few months ago, but that felt like it happened an eternity ago. It's just a distant memory to me now. I hope you will continue to love Singapore and Japan. Don't hate these countries because of me; they are both really wonderful countries.
That's all I have to say for now. See you next time, Moon Princess.
