I feel at peace nowadays.
In the day I have colleagues I really love to hang out with. Even during work time I chat with them using the internal messenger. There are a few people I feel really close to now. Amazing considering I have only worked for 6.5 months. Hopefully we can become close friends even outside of work eventually.
Recently I had my first objective setting with my supervisor and manager. They told me that they have high expectations of me, and hope that I can take a leadership position in the Nyaga IP in the future, as I'm the only person in the team capable of scenario writing. My supervisor said that I am 可遇不可求. I shall not fail them, and myself.
Later, I went to Google what that phrase means. Turns out that it means "can be encountered by luck, but cannot be found by effort". This phrase basically explains the concept of fate.
I will no longer try to do anything unnatural. Will leave it all to fate. If fate wants me to die alone so it shall be.
I actually started a new blog and managed to write on it a little, but it just doesn't feel the same unless I write on this 9 years old diary. So I decided to just stick to this old friend of mine.
