It's the new decade.
Now that I have made up my mind to quit my job, the fog in my mind has started to clear up. There's no reason to continue doing something I no longer love. It's really affecting me way too much. I can't remember when was the last time I felt at peace with myself. This quarter life crisis thing has been going on for close to a year already. It needs to end.
I have been reading googling "how to find a life purpose" the last few hours. Reading articles didn't do much for me, but reading reddit surprisingly, did something.
There are many people out there who are lost in life, just like me. Just know these people exist made me feel a little better. Some of them have helpful things to say. I now know that I am living inside a bubble. A tiny bubble of video games, thinking about a retirement, and ... what else is there even in my life?
I will stop whining and start doing something. God knows it's tiring to have to hear a whiner non-stop. I can't bear to watch me any longer. I'm downright pathetic now.
After I quit the job, I will go travel for a year or so. Not just Japan, but countries I would never dream of visiting. Otherwise I will never break out of the bubble. And I will do my best, rather than just trudge about listlessly.
I don't need anyone's approval or permission to do anything, and it's high time I put that privilege to good use.
I have spent the last few days just thinking about what I want to do. Eveything seemed like a great idea at 3 am on the bed, not able to fall asleep... but mostly they seemed stupid in the day. I did have some ideas that could become something though.
But in the meanwhile, I do intend to properly learn video editting. I would need to document my travels.
Here's my only new year resolution - find a direction. May I have a happy new year.