I am in a dilemma now.
Two days ago, Auntie Sally offered me to live in her place for free, on the condition that I sleep in the living room and use the public shower.
I have stayed at her place before, and it truly is heaven. It is 330 sqm, which is 5 times bigger than my place. It's a big even for a condominium. And there's an almost direct bus to my workplace, or 3 bus stops to the nearest downtown line station, and five stops to bendemeer plus a short walk.
I feel an internal conflict about this. I don't want to impose on her family. I would be leeching off her, and I'm an outsider to her daughter.
She has done so much for me, and I have never done anything for her in return. It makes me feel so bad about it. What can a poor man like me so for a rich lady? She wants me to become a Christian, but I can't force myself to believe in God.
Sleeping in the living room doesn't sound so great to me, but how can I be picky when it's still a million times better than my own place? It's quiet, peaceful, and spacious.
She says she will let me stay for a year, until I get transferred to Japan. I don't know if that will happen so soon, but she says she can extend that until I actually get transferred.
I would be able to leave the hell I'm stuck in. With all its crazy people and lunacy. That has always been my dream for the longest time. To live in a proper place. I wish never to see my family again if I can help it. Just disappear from my life please.
The more I write about it the more I can't find a reason to not go for it. I should offer to pay for my share of the grocery and electricity at least, to make me feel less bad about imposing.
Edit : I messaged her today and asked if I could move in on Saturday. She said okay. I hope everything goes well.