I happened to find the blog!
it make me littele sad, but i know his mind and also i could accept the real.
and i realized that he took care of me more than i thought.
all i wish now is to make confortable relation like that of my high school days.
anyway, though i cannot be quite without thinking of him, i do not feel sad, missing, angry and such a negative feeling so much.
now, i have to do my best for the things i have, gradiation thesis, futsal, badminton, part-time job.