this week was the last week of school о( ＞▽＜)ｙ ☆ 。 ~ !
ii`m so happie。 !
four more school daiis &&` it`s gonna be S U M M E R x B R E A K。 ! !
i can`t wait o(゜∇゜*o)(o*゜∇゜)o～♪ !
ahaha;;
todaii was reallie fun though。 !
went shopping at two asian markets。( ・ω ・)
the first one was at ichiban。 ~
i bought a kokeshi doll, anpan, green tea azuki, dango &&` two bowls that have a bunnie &&` bear on it。 ~ ! !
(( reminds mii of mii &&` Dai。(●´ω｀●)ゞ ))
the lady who was helping mii was reallie nice too。
after paying she gave mii &&` maii parents free iced coffee。! !
&&` she told us that kokeshi doll are hard to find &&` are reallie expensive in japan now `cause the original maker died。 。
it mad mii sad `cause i love kokeshi dolls 。。
here are some pictures of the things i got。 !
the second asian market we went to wasn`t as fun because all we got was sio pao, &&` noodles
&&` the people there were scary lookin` ・ﾟﾟ･(≧ д ≦)･ﾟﾟ･｡
ahh`。。
i still can`t believe it`s already been a week since maii cousins came here from ca 。。
it seems like it`s been a long time already &&` i miss them sooooo` much。
lol ii`m glad that i`ll be seeing them over the summer though。（‐＾▽＾‐）!
teehee。
ii`m gonna stop writing for now。
good night。 ~ ! !
ii`m so glad that ii`m feeling a lot better than yesterdaii morning ( ・ω ・)/ !
last night i was able to hang out with maii cousin。~
ahaha;;
all we did was watch gheyy youtube vids. &&` watch live boxing。!
(( LOL。it only lasted less than 3 miutes though ! ! ))
the only thing that wasn`t fun was when i accidently cut maii toe on something sharp ( > ____ <)
after church i was able to find maii confirmation outfit。~
the blouse &&` skirt that i bought are super cute。 ! !
i can`t wait to wear it for maii confirmation。!
when that was done i had to go to mmaii church classes。
we only rehersed wat we where suppose to do for confimation &&` after that we had free time。o(゜∇゜*o) ! !
ahaha;;
i talked to one maii friend who i haven`t talked to in awhile &&` i met new people aswell。
we all had so much fun talking about random stuff。 ! !
i missed talking to all of them &&` ii`m pretty sad that we won`t get to see eachother after next month 。。
they`re reallie nice people &&` i wish they went to maii school lol。
when i arrived home i was able to talk to Dai ! ! ! !
i haven`t talked to him ever since the weekend started 。。
he was able to make mii feel better by just talking to mii。
ahh`。。i wish he could come over &&` cheer mii up more 。。
lol。
todaii was one of the best daiis ii`ve had in a longヾ( ´ ω｀) !
i reallie do hope there will be more daiis like this one
this week hasn`t been the greatest week for mii &&` i just wanted to get it all out。。
lately, i haven`t been very happie with maiiself。。
ii`ve been stressing out on school work, i feel as if ii`m losing maii friends &&` i screamed at maii dad todaii。。
whenever i have to study or finish maii homework for AP US History &&` chemistry i start to freak out。。 (( 2oo+ definitions for apush &&` complicated chemistry worksheets ))
the work that i receive from those classes overwhelm mii to the point where i just don`t want to do it anymore。。
i guess it`s because it`s almost the end of the year &&` i just want to get the school year over with。。
but i feel as if i should do the things ii`m suppose to do these things but i can`t。。
maii parents are also pushing mii hard to study in apush since i have to take the test for it soon。。
as for losing maii friends。。
ii`ve noticed over the years that i don`t have as much friends as i use to have。
i tried to reconnect with maii old friends but there`s that awkward moment where it doesn`t feel like ii`m talking to the same person as i use to back in middle school。。
the friends that i have now have been ignoring mii lately。。
i feel as if they don`t care about mii or don`t want to be with mii anymore。。
like whenever ii`m walking with maii friend in the hallway &&` she see`s her other friends she goes to them &&` i kinda feel left out because i don`t know what to say at all。。so usually when she hangs out with her friends ii`m usually quiet or i just go to the library or maii homeroom。
maii other friend has been realliw quiet lately。。
whenever we`re at lunch or whenever i see her i feel as if she doesn`t want to be around mii。。
i`ll talk to her but she doesn`t say that much or she`ll just leave mii &&` go somewhere else。。
it hurts a lot because i don`t know what i did to make her like that &&` i don`t want to lose another friend。。
even in these circumstances i alwaiis put on that fake smile &&` act as if nothing is wrong。。when deep inside ii`m hurting because sometimes i feel alone &&` that no one wants to be with mii。。
thinking about those kinda of stuff made mii just want to die。。
like。。if i did die i feel as if maii friends wouldn`t care &&` just go on with their life like as if nothing happned。。
thinking about this made mii yell at maii dad。。he only asked mii what was wrong &&` i just started yelling at him reallie loud。。
usually i never yell but i just couldn`t deal with the stress that ii`m going under right now。。
as i was yelling i knocked over the ironing board, threw maii binder at the wall aswell as a textbook。。i usually don`t do those kinds of stuff but i can`t take the pain that ii`m going through。。
after realizing what i did i wanted to tell maii dad that ii`m sorrie。。but i couldn`t。。
ii`m scared that all of these things are gonna happen when i go back to school &&` nothing is gonna change between mii &&` maii friends,maii grades in maii classes or maii outbreaks。。
i alwaiis hope for a better daii but i don`t know when maii next good daii will come。。
until that daii comes i`ll just put on that fake smile at school &&` come home crying。。
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