ahaha;;
it only seems like i only go on here just because ii`m feeling bad x ___ x'' 。。
but i guess it`s because after i type everything down that`s been bothering mii i feel better。?
well。。
lately ii`ve been feeling as if maii friends &&` family don`t reallie like or trust me anymore。。
just things like them lying to mii, or telling stuff like we need to hang out but we can`t。。ugh it just bothers mii a lot 。( ≧ д ≦)
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i feel like i can`t reallie talk to any of them about stuff that bothers mii cause i know they won`t listen。
or just nod their heads &&` say "everythings gonna be alrite。" knowing that they don`t wanna help mii analyze maii problems bothers mii when i help them out with their problems。it`s like they don`t hae any time for mii。。
ehehe。i know it seems selfish but。。i feel as if ii`m not being treated the same y`know。。
ehh`。。i need to stop stressing out on things like this。
that`s why i wish i was the kind of person to let go of stuff easily。
but i just keep it all in。
mm;;。。hopefully things will get better。。
going to the philippines mite help mii clear maii head a bit （Ｔ＿Ｔ）'' 。。
ahaha;; kinda nervous about meeting maii cousins there too x . x;
since i haven`t talked to them in over 1o years &&` some arn`t fluent in english (゜д゜；)
so it`ll be a little awkward to talk to them > _____ <'' 。。
maybe the only thing i need to do is be more positive &&` stop worrying too much ehehe。。