今日は彼女が言った許せないことを日記に書いてストレスを発散することにした。
あれは先々週くらいの話。私と彼女と友達の三人で古着屋巡りをするために集まろうという話をLINEでしていたのだが、彼女が私に我儘を言うので、集合の前に私が彼女の家に行った。朝から何も食べていないのでとてもお腹が空いていた私は彼女の家で食材を物色した。お餅があったので、彼女にも食べたい個数を聞いてお雑煮を作ってあげることにした。彼女が2個ほど食べるというので私は3から4個食べたいと思い、独り言で沢山食べよっと言うとそれを聞いていた彼女が食べすぎだと言って私が沢山餅を食べることを禁止した。許せない。筋トレをしてバルクアップしてかっこいい体になってほしいと言ったのは彼女なのに餅二つ多く食べることすら許さないという。私だって彼女が家に来た時は彼女に楽しんでもらえるように美味しいものを沢山食べれるような配慮をしてきたし、それにかかるお金は私が負担してきた。スーパーマーケットで買い物をすれば1回60ドルはかかる。これは金欠大学生の私にとっては少なくない金額だ。連休には彼女が私の家に連泊することもある。その際にかかる食費は全てこちらが出しているのに、たかだか餅二個ケチられるなんて思いもしなかった。彼女が私に餅を食べるなと言ってきた時、私はありとあらゆる方面での怒りと彼女の発言のおかしさに圧倒されて脳（思考）が停止してしまったため言い返すこともなく餅を二つだけ食べてそれでも空いたお腹をさすりながら、苛立ちを抱えながら家と彼女を後にした。
(自作)
I am going to write what she said to me that I do not forgive her and release my stressful emotion.
this is happened about two weeks ago. I, my girl friend and my friend decided we hanged out to look vintage clothing shops on LINE. Before we met, I and my girl friend went to her house due to her wish. I had not eaten anything in the day and scarving when we arrived at her house. I looked arund her house to find some groceries. I found rice cakes and ask her how many pieces she want to eat. Then, I cooked rice cake soup. She said she wanted to eat 2 pieces of rice cake. When I say, "Oay, you will eat 2 pieces of that, and I will let me see 3 to 4 pieces of rice ckae!", she say do not do that. "3 to 4 pieces of rice cake is too much because I want to save that."
I never forgie what she said.
She want me to work on working out and want to see good looking muscle. But, she did not allowed me to eat only two pieces of rice cake. I always buy something to enjoy eating when she come to my house. I always pay for that. Once I buy something in supermarkets, it cost at least 60 dollars. She sometimes stay several days in a week. I did not come up with she save only two pieces of rice cakes. When she say to me do not eat any more, I got angry too much and stand out by her saying and I could not say to her. I just ate 2 pieces of rice cakes and shaked my hand on my sbody and leave her and her house with annnoying.
（chat gpt）
Today, I decided to write in my diary about something unforgivable that my girlfriend said, as a way to blow off some steam.
This happened about two weeks ago. My girlfriend, a friend, and I were planning to go thrift shopping together and were discussing it on LINE. However, my girlfriend was being selfish, so I went to her house before we met up. I hadn’t eaten anything all morning and was very hungry when we arrived at her house. I looked around her house for some food and found some rice cakes. I asked her how many she wanted to eat and decided to make rice cake soup for her. She said she wanted to eat two rice cakes. When I said to myself, “Okay, you’ll eat two, and I’ll have three or four!”, she heard me and told me not to. She said, “Three or four rice cakes are too much because I want to save them.”
I can’t forgive what she said.
She wants me to work out and get a good-looking body. But she didn’t allow me to eat more than two rice cakes. I always buy something enjoyable to eat when she comes to my house. I always pay for it. Once I buy something at the supermarket, it costs at least 60 dollars. Sometimes she stays at my house for several days in a week. I didn’t expect her to be stingy over just two rice cakes. When she told me not to eat any more, I was overwhelmed with anger and the absurdity of her statement, and my brain (thoughts) shut down, so I didn’t argue back. I just ate two rice cakes, rubbed my still-hungry stomach, and left her and her house with irritation."
blow off some steam は「充満した蒸気を逃がす」→「ストレスを解消する」
I were planning to go thrift shopping togetherは一緒に古着を買いに行こうとしたって感じ。店に入ったら商品を見たりする」という意味も含んでる場合はchecking out second-hand (clothing) shops みたいに書くのがいいっぽい。
