I realized I has underestimated my life.
I always think something take it easy even I stand in front of wall that is difficult to overcome.
I thought I had done it.
But it was wrong.
This is not me overcoming that problem, strictly speaking I did, but my friends or my family.
Then, I have been standing in front of the wall for long time.
I demanded to find answer how to overcome it from my friend unconsciously.
I think I always ask the strategy how to solve problem to someone who has already done it.
After I heard the how to overcome his problem, I thought I also overcome "my"problem.
Finally someone who repeat something like that tend to not thinking it by themselves.
This is me.
In fact, I has been in trouble for a long time.
I realized after my birthday.
人生ナメてました。
他人の意見に流されすぎて、自分の頭で考えることが自然とできなくなってた。
今それに気づき、半分絶望に近い所まで落ちてる。
「若いときの苦労は金だしてまでしろって言うんだし、金もらって苦労してるんだから最高でしょ、俺」
ってサッカー日本代表の内田篤人が言ってたけど、そう言えてる段階でその問題の解決の糸口は見えてる事が多い。
俺も早く自分を客観視できるくらい余裕が欲しい。
しばらくこの状態は続きそうだ。
こんなんで負けてられないけど。
これ乗り越えたらまた海外で成長できるかな。
記録として残しておきます。
I always think something take it easy even I stand in front of wall that is difficult to overcome.
I thought I had done it.
But it was wrong.
This is not me overcoming that problem, strictly speaking I did, but my friends or my family.
Then, I have been standing in front of the wall for long time.
I demanded to find answer how to overcome it from my friend unconsciously.
I think I always ask the strategy how to solve problem to someone who has already done it.
After I heard the how to overcome his problem, I thought I also overcome "my"problem.
Finally someone who repeat something like that tend to not thinking it by themselves.
This is me.
In fact, I has been in trouble for a long time.
I realized after my birthday.
人生ナメてました。
他人の意見に流されすぎて、自分の頭で考えることが自然とできなくなってた。
今それに気づき、半分絶望に近い所まで落ちてる。
「若いときの苦労は金だしてまでしろって言うんだし、金もらって苦労してるんだから最高でしょ、俺」
ってサッカー日本代表の内田篤人が言ってたけど、そう言えてる段階でその問題の解決の糸口は見えてる事が多い。
俺も早く自分を客観視できるくらい余裕が欲しい。
しばらくこの状態は続きそうだ。
こんなんで負けてられないけど。
これ乗り越えたらまた海外で成長できるかな。
記録として残しておきます。