good-bye will always hurt

so i see big C has a girlfriend now

yay good for him!

im really happy for him and wish HER a good luck!

this one is very difficult to handle girly...lol

i still remember how nice and sweet he was before "she"(his ex) showed up! haha

and i was so upset because he turned me down and it never happened to me before

but come to think of it... he couldnt see what i worth. its his loss. :P lol

the funny part is this whole thing actually reminded me of my relationships i had w/ my ex...or ex-es(i dont even know if its a word)

i feel so sorry for the guys who i didnt try to give my best to

im sure there were many other ways to handle it but i ended up hurting each one of them in different ways

i was scared of showing my vulnerabilities. i still am actually.

i cant completely open up to someone.

i will always have a distance between people and me.

im just scared of letting people in. idk why.

maybe im totally broken. who knows.

anyway, im gonna go to bed now. nitenite

unexpected

people laugh because im different but i laugh because they are all the same.

i love being different.

some people seem to have problem w/ that but who cares

just keep talking shit about me

it doesnt bother me at all

you are nobody till you are talked about

you talk shit about me just proves that im awesome :)

xoxo

all about you

[Chad Hatch:] 
Life's not what you take 
It's not about the promises you make 
It's not about the friends you might've made 
Or love that is gone 

Life is what you give 
It's not about the stupid things you did 
It's not about the way things could've been 
It's about movin' on 

[Chorus:] 
It's all about you 
So every morning when wake, before the first step that you take 
Just think it's all what you make it 
And you'll make it through 

[Classified:] 
This life will leave you stressed out, left out with your neck out, ain't nothing changed 
It's real life so we deal right but it feels like it's something strange. 
We wonderin' the dumbest things and let everything get under our skin 
Trouble again, tryin' to impress someone else. It's fucked in the head. 
So do you, you'll never make everyone happy. It just won't happen. 
At the end of day, when all say is said, you better be ready to go back at'em. 
I learn slow, my verse shows my growth, my wisdom. 
If you positive, or you negative, it don't make a difference not when you live it. 
Cause some of the most successful people on this planet 
Will kill themselves for somebody else's like they really couldnt manage. 
Then we got bums, alcoholics on the streets 
With no stress, no where to rest, no where to dress, no where to sleep. 
And they say fuck my morals. I'm drinkin' away my sorrows. 
I'm livin' life and I'm happy, I ain't thinking about tomorrow. 

[Chorus] 

[Chad Hatch:] 
Life is what it brings 
It's not about cars and fancy things 
Or hairsalons and diamond rings 
Girls don't lose no sleep 

Life is all about the things you'll never figure out 
It's all about the people you allow in and the memories that you keep 

[Classified:] 
This here is life so tell me who choses whats wrong and right. 
Is it what we see on tv? Get a job, raise a family. 
That's how I was raised, how I was brought up 
Get a wife, a son and daughter. 
That's how I was taught to be proper. 
Never thought anyone could get caught up. 
And slowly I get up and the fairytale quickly vanished. 
Realized that life is a bitch and shit, you gotta be able to stand it. 
And you gotta be able to handle it, this stress and the pressure, you channel it.. 
And you learn to cope at the end of your rope anyway that you can with liquor or dope. 
Or work hard, raise your kids. Strip clubs, whatever it is. 
Smoke weed, shoot hoops, whatever you find your happiness through. 
It's your life. Just make sure you know what you want when you go out and get it 
Keep doing this shit for you, not your crew or the dude you're tryna impress, kid. 
Life is simple, life is hard and yeah life is fun 
So enjoy the things around you before your life is done. 

[Chorus]