This isn't really for public consumption. I will presumably take it down before I reveal this blog to anyone who knows me. By way of an introduction: I have social anxiety disorder, and I don't want to have it now, so I'm writing to myself to see if I can figure it out.
Why is it wrong to fantasise about exposing your insecurities to others?
(For example, in the context of a debate speech, suddenly mentioning how you don't think you're good-looking or confident, perhaps trying to 'conceal' these observations under the guise of an actual argument. That sort of thing.)
- It validates the idea that you have these 'bad' qualities. (Why?)
- It wouldn't achieve anything good if you did it. (Why not?)
- It sabotages your actual social interactions with the people you imagine yourself telling - especially if it's become a dominant pattern, like with N. (How?)
So I had lots of ideas, and they all seemed to fade before I could start writing. This is a useful formatting test and I might come back to it if I get my train back!