For the first time porn legend Aiden Shaw takes fans behindthescenes to the gay adult film world that made him a star My Undoing ventures from locales such as Los Angeles San Francisco New York and London to the sets of premiere studios like Falcon Catalina and StudioYet this is not the typical adult film memoir where stars drop names and titillate readers with explicit moments Although My Undoing shares in unsparing detail all the hot stories about the sex and drugs that fueled Aidens life it more profoundly follows him through a course of rocky and unfulfilling relationships As Aiden eloquently and often humorously points out the romantic life of an adult film superstar is sometimes lonely and lacking in love But not love only in the form of a relationship rather also love from within himself The book is equally moving for his revelations about his Irish Catholic family his Positive HIV status in the sex industry and his recovery from a near fatal car accident that left him