１８

無駄なこと　や無駄な時間
というものを極力さけたい


でも　いろんな人とのかさなり　で　できている集団のなかにいると
妥協はしなければならない
協調　やら　おもいやり


しかしあっちたてたらこっちたたない
そんな状況

先延ばしにしても　どうしようもない
判断は出来る場合なら
さっと　さっさっと
先延ばしに
なあなあにするのは
もっとめんどくさくなる

気がする



今日の午後は胃がいたい

気がした



I didn't realize the identity problem in me.
I think I'm japanese and that's right,I was born in Japan and raised up by Japanese parents.

But I had spent five years in United State in my childhood, this is true too.
Had very close relations with american culture.

So, there's no doubt about there is difference in me and the person which spent all their childhood in Japan.
I thought I was same to them. But was not.
I don't want people to take this thought that I'm thinking I'm different from you guys and I'm special.That is not what I meant.

I think we are all different in different ways.
We have differences, I 'm very sad that some people doesn't accept this thought or doesn't event know this.


I didn't know it was hard, till now.
Realized the stresses in me. Well think it was alright if I didn't realize it.
(also I realized that I am damn! )

wonder how does people get along with this types of problem.




では明日もがんばりましょう
おわり