hi! i hope ur well bb xx
right now, on october 28 2018, you're feeling extremely nostalgic. it is also the first day of your period.... coinkydink? we will never know.
anyways, i'm on the fifth semester of my english bachelor. and currently writing it! ("writing" is a generous term, i think. you've made something, but...) ALSO! your supplementary subject (yeah, 3rd semester me KNEW NOTHING) is anthropology! its very interesting, but also very, very time consuming. hopefully rewarding as well - we'll see on november 20th or 21st, i guess. but you'll already know by then, wink wonk!
i need to go to bed. it's 10pm lmao, and i gotta be up at 5:30. i'm an old lady now. i go to bed consistently at 10 or 10.30 pm, even on weekends when i'm by myself :')
thus far in your life you've never had a relationshpi with anyone. you've been confused, and close, i guess, but nothing's ever resulted in anything! you get sad sometimes. sometimes anxiety clouds your heart. but only for a second. when you blink, it's over and something has distracted you. which is good! however, these small moments build up and sometimes you just cry (rarely lol) (usually when ur drunk) (which u aren't often anymore! wow, go you!)
you recently dreamt of death. where you died. it was very very scary to feel the void. you FELT it. and sometimes the thought consumes your whole being, again, just a second.
but you're also happy! but not right now. because you're sad and nostalgic and writing on your DFUCKING BLOG. i am judging you, and myself, and all these personae, so so so so os o much.
do you think you'll pass all your classes this semester? i think i'll be somewhere around 02/7 for anthropology. and the bachelor's project is a whole different level. anything from -3 to 12 i think. depends on what the FUCK i do.
you miss your friends. you do see people, especially your new friends from anthropology, on weekdays. but rarely some of your really good friends. martine. vilde. lina. all of those. but... it'll be fine. it's a phase lol uhfhfhghghghh also you lost some weight good job!!! now just quit smoking. also! get FUCKING doing the pilates again!!!!!!!!!! your break has been two weeks long so far!! GET BACK IN THE GAME!!
benny is doing wonderful! loves being outside at harvig. still unsure about the outside in aarhus. she had surgery in february because she fell... and it was almost fatal. but you remember that, i'm sure. the love of your life <3
bai