I am knocked out by people's negative stories. I cant listen to it. I wish I were fine for but I am not. I listen to their stories if the story is them but I cant keep listening to someone who keep speaking problems of others. I cant cope with someone keep saying 'oh its bad, oh its wrong, oh this is a problem' I cant cope. I dont know why. I think it is my brain. Since when? Have I even ever had people like that around? Is this me my thoughts at present? I dont wanna listen. I like V alot. I think I am hurt by some of his attitude which I feel disrespectful. Um. I think I want to be treated with better dignity or respect. What in me is making people to be disrespectful towards me. I want to find out. It is more complicated than just say because I am disrespectful to myself or other people?
I think I expect lots. I dont know if it is lots but may be inappropreately? Maybe. I write. So I can at least be honest with myself.