Today, I read more Durarara!! fanfics.
I tried finding more cool interesting or dark angsty but not out-of-character Izaya fanfics.
I found one.
And I read it. All of it within a few hours. I don't even know whether that's considered complete, but it looked like an ending, but I also hope there's more.
It started out all happy, I knew something is gonna happen to Izaya, something that'll threaten him, that'll put him in a desperate situation.
Everything played out really well. He was desperate and scared, but he was still in-character. I could see Izaya really acting that way. All the characters were in-character.
Halfway through the story, I really liked it. I had the "I finally found the best Izaya fanfic" thought.
Until one point.
Until I realized what happened.
Halfway through, the writer did not reveal a certain scene.
It was all written really vaguely, so I only had to guess what happened to Izaya. I just guessed what I thought.
But.
I did have a gut feeling. A suspicion. A tiny little thought. But because I hated reading about that, I pushed it away.
It turned out to be that.
It had to be that.
It became so freaking obvious.
And then I didn't want to read it.
I didn't want to. But I still wanted to see what will happen.
I was curious. I just hated that part. I hated how it had to happen. To him.
I hated it. The story became so horrible. So terrible. So so so... horribly beautiful.
Every word became painful to read. My tears just kept flowing. But I read on and on, and it became so painfully difficult. But I kept reading. It was sad.
I was completely in denial. Not just him. The reader, me too. "No no no it didn't happen. Of course it didn't happen. No way it'd happen." I kept saying to myself. I was afraid too, just like him. I was hoping it didn't happen.
The emotions, of Izaya, of all the other characters, were all so overwhelming.
The writer was so evil. More evil than Izaya. She just tore away Izaya's everything. It was shocking. It was shocking even more that Izaya is a character that I can relate to a lot. If something as bad as this happens, it's just heartbreaking that it's Izaya.
I'm so glad it will never happen in canon, but I kinda saw everything happen anyways since I could imagine everything in the story playing out in my head.
I can't even describe how amazing and heartbreaking this story is. But every single word, was enough to bring me to tears.
Every sentence was like a scene that just plays slowly in front of me as I read. It was so so painful. So heart-wrenching.
I really like this fanfic. I'm glad I got to read it. I think one day I'll surely re-read it. It was a really hectic journey. I'm glad I found this. Thank you, writer, you are amazing. Please continue to write more.
On a lighter note. I didn't find it.... The light novels of Durarara!! that I had wanted to buy. The first few volumes weren't in Kinokuniya. They'll refill them next week. I'll wait for next week! Argh. School starts though...
I tried finding more cool interesting or dark angsty but not out-of-character Izaya fanfics.
I found one.
And I read it. All of it within a few hours. I don't even know whether that's considered complete, but it looked like an ending, but I also hope there's more.
It started out all happy, I knew something is gonna happen to Izaya, something that'll threaten him, that'll put him in a desperate situation.
Everything played out really well. He was desperate and scared, but he was still in-character. I could see Izaya really acting that way. All the characters were in-character.
Halfway through the story, I really liked it. I had the "I finally found the best Izaya fanfic" thought.
Until one point.
Until I realized what happened.
Halfway through, the writer did not reveal a certain scene.
It was all written really vaguely, so I only had to guess what happened to Izaya. I just guessed what I thought.
But.
I did have a gut feeling. A suspicion. A tiny little thought. But because I hated reading about that, I pushed it away.
It turned out to be that.
It had to be that.
It became so freaking obvious.
And then I didn't want to read it.
I didn't want to. But I still wanted to see what will happen.
I was curious. I just hated that part. I hated how it had to happen. To him.
I hated it. The story became so horrible. So terrible. So so so... horribly beautiful.
Every word became painful to read. My tears just kept flowing. But I read on and on, and it became so painfully difficult. But I kept reading. It was sad.
I was completely in denial. Not just him. The reader, me too. "No no no it didn't happen. Of course it didn't happen. No way it'd happen." I kept saying to myself. I was afraid too, just like him. I was hoping it didn't happen.
The emotions, of Izaya, of all the other characters, were all so overwhelming.
The writer was so evil. More evil than Izaya. She just tore away Izaya's everything. It was shocking. It was shocking even more that Izaya is a character that I can relate to a lot. If something as bad as this happens, it's just heartbreaking that it's Izaya.
I'm so glad it will never happen in canon, but I kinda saw everything happen anyways since I could imagine everything in the story playing out in my head.
I can't even describe how amazing and heartbreaking this story is. But every single word, was enough to bring me to tears.
Every sentence was like a scene that just plays slowly in front of me as I read. It was so so painful. So heart-wrenching.
I really like this fanfic. I'm glad I got to read it. I think one day I'll surely re-read it. It was a really hectic journey. I'm glad I found this. Thank you, writer, you are amazing. Please continue to write more.
On a lighter note. I didn't find it.... The light novels of Durarara!! that I had wanted to buy. The first few volumes weren't in Kinokuniya. They'll refill them next week. I'll wait for next week! Argh. School starts though...