For about two weeks. (;^_^A
If life’s being a bitch, I’ve been an even bigger one.
I’ve been seeking comfort in my reverie for the longest time.
Once upon a time, I had started holing myself up, with the naïve thought that the lack of hope and commitment would logically lead to a path free of hurt and disappointment, sort of like a guaranteed protection scheme. And so showing the perfect apathy I did. However, the more hostile I tried to be, the bigger a bastard I became. I’ve been so caught-up in this protection scheme that I’ve lost touch with my conscience.
The wake up call came when V contacted me this week. Something had happened to the girls’ mother and was hospitalized. WF was most affected by it, according to V, even I was taken aback. At such tender age, I wonder how the girls are taking it. Completely clueless. XN did not reply to my text as she would enthusiastically do in the past. I’m going down to visit them this weekend. I hope they stay strong, and as their big sister, I must be even stronger for them.
It’s about time I stop wallowing in self-pity, get my butt out of this energy trap and stop all the dysfunctional shit. There are lots more people out there who are in a much worse predicament than I am who needs my help.
Okay, so for the longest time, I've been moping about instead of studying. I have PILES and HEAPS and TONS and MOUNTAINS of work to catch up with and clear, fast. Sigh. (>_<)
がんばります。(ﾉﾟοﾟ)ﾉ