i yearn for your presence every day.
i would do a lot of things if that meant i could see you again.
hear your laughter, feel your love and kindness, and feel your skin against my skin.
what gives me peace is how you live through me even after your death.
you make me want to be a better person. maybe, just maybe, i could be as good of a human as you were. even after you died, you still guide me through your presence. i still hear your voices. i can hear the things you used to say or what i think you would say.
ive become kinder to myself because you were kind to me.
i see the beauty in me that i used to not see because you thought i was beautiful.
i try to be patient towards myself and others because thats what you did.
i now see who my real friends are because you knew before i did.
ive been working on being patient and kind to my parents because thats what you did.
i try not to compare myself to others because thats what you used to do.
the only regret is realizing this after you died.
thank you for your kindness. your thoughtfulness. your patience.
im learning to be that because of you.
thank you, my love.