Before I sleep, I have been thinking of my my day, what it was about, what were the high and low points, who offended me and who I offended and what I should have done better.
Today, it was all about clarity. Clarity in the sense that life's doors opened and that I affirmed the value of a lot of things in my life. There are three things that stand out:
1. The power of belief and prayer is amazing in so many ways. It has given me comfort and the courage to make important changes that I have always wanted but didn't have the chance to do. The last vestiges of doubt inside me on the existence of a higher power out there disappeared completely.
2. I am passionate about a lot of things - from the smallest bit to the larger-than-life matters. When I say passionate, I never fail to see things through with enough fervour to light an entire football stadium (along with thousand of spectator's bums) on fire. I am not kidding. I never really knew I have it in me. I just don't do well with shenanigans - or at least those I view as such. When I like something, I like it with everything I am - same goes for when I dislike. I have my own opinion on different matters. In fact, I always have an opinion on anything and everything and I will stand by them until proven otherwise; I mean irrefutable proof, mind you.
3. In connection to number 2, I don't dislike something without trying it out first -- or at least have some knowledge about it. I like doing research and experiments. I'm not kidding when I say I hate kimchi because I really don't like the taste. I'm also not kidding when I say I love cooking for people. They are not just formed on whim and I don't really care if people find me difficult to deal with, hurtful and weird. My tastes may not be the same as everybody else (a lot of them, actually), but I always have my reasons. I don't really care about other people's opinion of me.
It's strange how insightful this day has been. Not only did I get a clear picture of how everything and everyone around me work, but also how my own mind works.
I guess this is a sizable step forward to the right direction.