SIGH!

wanted to be a good girl and stay at home accompany my mum for today yet all I got is nagging (#｀ε´#)

she said she is tired.

she don't know what to do at home..I told her to go out and have tea with her friends..

she just replied 'tea no need $$ ah'

I just told her, 'how much can a tea cost?'

cause I believe she don't go expensive restaurants / cafe with her friends.

then she said 'go out with friends I feel tired too'

I think the main problem with her is lack of exercise. as in, she keep staying at home!

I dislike the way she phrase her words,

dislike the way she thinks,

dislike the way she blames mr jem for every single decision i made,

dislike the way she see me as a kid, still!

I can understand that she is worried that I might be at the disadvantage / commit suicide / gave up myself or what ever if one day mr jem going to leave me for another person.

I can understand that she is worried about how our mindset might change after his ns.

cause there is a possibility that we can't survive through this 2 years as many things might happen.

I can understand that 不管发生什么事，女生都是吃亏的一方。

which is saying something like, whatever happens, girls are always at the disadvange.

is not that she dislike / not satisfied with mr jem,

maybe just that she thinks that we're still young, afterall she doesn't know him well.

but she didn't take the initiative to.

要是照她的意思去做，那我一辈子不是要很小心我的另一半？我周围的人？这样真的很累人啊！

she used to ask me not to believe in people, as in friends.

always say '朋友又怎么样？‘

but I'm that kind of 'friends are important too' people. hurhur~

要是照她的意思,

there isn't any trust between people, right?

if that's the way,

you'll beware of people you come in contact to,

beware of the people you know,

beware of the person you love,

beware of the people in your family??

wth.

做个她的标准的人真的好难，好累！！

thank you you for reading(: