大丈夫だって言い聞かせて
得意の笑顔みきかえる ... sfz
Yeah yeah first entry since a long time ... somehow I didn't feel like writing something the whole time , and I still don't do it （ｉДｉ）
But okay somehow I need to write a little .. even a little bit .
I feel awful the last two days , I don't know why so suddenly , really I don't know .
My feelings = chaos . (:_;)
We work so much at home right now ... my room is almost ready in 2-3 days I can finally move in , and then I have my two rooms .
And the fucking weather in Germany is getting hot again ... means that my head will hurt the next days again the whole time . (￣Д￣；；
And this night was so awful... ok the last 3 nights where awful but the last was the worst , I mean I couldn't sleep .. not even one fucking hour . At the end I where sitting on my bed and watched the whole time the moon T^T
I have to do so many things today too ...
I don't even hear music anymore ... I don't feel like...
I hate the moments when I don't know whats right and wrong , when I try to do the right and then I do the wrong ... [ like always ] ...
痛みは増える一方だろう
ならば受け止めて行くまでさ
I'll be ... fine. ...
Pictures from the japanday :
Firework
They even made hearts in the sky ..
Picture from last week ...
何を信じればいい？ 誰を愛し求め合えばいいの？
僕は独り僕を裂いた ...
得意の笑顔みきかえる ... sfz
Yeah yeah first entry since a long time ... somehow I didn't feel like writing something the whole time , and I still don't do it （ｉДｉ）
But okay somehow I need to write a little .. even a little bit .
I feel awful the last two days , I don't know why so suddenly , really I don't know .
My feelings = chaos . (:_;)
We work so much at home right now ... my room is almost ready in 2-3 days I can finally move in , and then I have my two rooms .
And the fucking weather in Germany is getting hot again ... means that my head will hurt the next days again the whole time . (￣Д￣；；
And this night was so awful... ok the last 3 nights where awful but the last was the worst , I mean I couldn't sleep .. not even one fucking hour . At the end I where sitting on my bed and watched the whole time the moon T^T
I have to do so many things today too ...
I don't even hear music anymore
... I don't feel like... I hate the moments when I don't know whats right and wrong , when I try to do the right and then I do the wrong ... [ like always
] ...痛みは増える一方だろう
ならば受け止めて行くまでさ
I'll be ... fine. ...
Pictures from the japanday :
Firework
They even made hearts in the sky ..
Picture from last week ...
何を信じればいい？ 誰を愛し求め合えばいいの？
僕は独り僕を裂いた ...