Love builds, it also destroys.

Love helps us to show our inner beauty. It helps us show what we can do more. It helps us to be a new and better person. Love changes us. But not all stories went like what you’re thinking. Love changed you and you became worse. Maybe there’s a reason behind that. Maybe because of that reason, you’ll be able to find the right one for you. And when you found that person, they’re the one who will cure your scars from the past, make you smile again, and the one who will help you to build the new you.

My outfit of the day!

Just a thought June 2014.

Maybe I wasn’t asking you to love me, maybe I was asking you to understand, because for so long I’ve been hurt and for so long you’ve ignored it, and maybe it is bad timing, but maybe, I don’t care. I’ve been here all along just waiting, waiting for you to notice, waiting for you to care. Waiting for you to say that you’ve been waiting too and you haven’t and maybe you never will or maybe you’re afraid to. But it all hurts the same, and in the end, I’m the one that’s left broken and when I lay down to sleep, I’m still the one crying, so screw the bad timing. I’ve loved you then, like I love you now, like I probably always will.

Updates! New job & Summer vacation.

Hello my lovelies, sorry for being a little inactive with updating my blog.
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As you all know, finals was last week, so me and my roommates have been extremely busy packing & moving somethings back to Mansfield. For the most part, we're leaving everything behind in the dorm except for clothes, shoes, makeups, laptops, etc.. things that girls can't live without. (｀・ω・´)”
I'm getting a job as a singer at Black & White Lounge for a month before my summer vacation starts.
I will be visiting Japan & China [very ecstatic right now (▰˘◡˘▰)] I probably won't be posting a lot when I'm oversea but I promise I'll shower you guys with thousands and thousands of pictures when I get back.

Here are a couple of photos of me before work at Black & White Lounge. Credits to my lovely friend, Kim.

Just a thought May 2014.

Love is more than just boxes of chocolates & bouquets of flowers & jewelries and diamond, presents. It is about you thinking you’re giving nothing but to them it’s everything. Love overlooks money & fails to look at all the material things. It is more than just saying sorry and forgiving.
Love is about learning from your mistakes & trying not to make the same ones over and over. Love is about disregarding all the differences behind, and not bringing them up again. Love does not hold a grudge, because love, you forget all that painful things & move on to the better things.
Love is more than just holding hands when things are good, but holding them tighter when things are bad. Love is more than just saying ‘I love you’ during the good times and happy times, but being able to say the same phrase, with the same meaning during angry times, and in times of distress.
Love is more than just about your partner, but it is more about you and about God. Like they say, if you haven’t found God, you haven’t found love.

Photoshoot with Stacey & Sugene

I had a wonderful photoshoot today with my bestfriend, Kim, to promote her shop :) Which I will link you guys later so please check it out!
We went to Sugene (bakery shop in downtown Houston) and it's a wonderful place to take pictures & enjoy their pastry.

A couple pics from the my photoshoot:


The bakery:

Eventually, someone will.

Time will come and you will meet someone who is going to know you more than anybody else could ever possibly imagine. Ultimately, that person will end up having the best understanding of you, sometimes, even more than your own self would ever dream of. One day, you’ll find that somebody who wouldn't need a dictionary to uncover the meaning behind your words or soon, does not need an illustrated lexicon to disclose why you act a certain way.
Someday, that person simply just knows how you are and just who you are.
Eventually, that somebody will find out how many moles you have on your face, or how you got that scar three inches below your hip, or how terrible your driving skills are, or how disgustingly sweet you like your coffee in the morning. That person will know your scent, every inch, every surface and just about every fiber of your skin.
Ultimately, that man, that man will see your face through the layers of your foundation, and he will lay his eyes on you, bare, underneath all the coatings of your blush-on and eye shadow and eye liner. And that woman, eventually, will know that no matter how masculine you truly are, you posses a sensitive side. She will realize how much of a child you become when you have a fever, and how much your eyes light up with the sight of a big screen TV, or a motorcycle, or any new news about the NBA trades.
Sooner or later, you will meet someone who will show you how capable you are of understanding other’s feelings and emotions, someone who will test your patience time and time again and someone who knows exactly what to do or say when things aren't going your way.
You will meet that person, eventually, the one who will stand beside you, with a smile, when you start to realize that one by one, all your dreams are coming true and all your hard work is starting to pay off, knowing that they are a huge part of your motivation and inspiration in the process. Time will come; you will meet that person that will see you through the good and the bad. And who is willing to fight with you through the ugly. The one who understand how imperfect you are, how much of a work in progress you are and how much room there is left for you to grow.
But despite everything, eventually, you will meet that someone. And that someone is going to love you. That someone is going to love all of you.

Photoshoot. Theme: Retro Antique.

Thank you SO much to my bestfriend, Kim, for always shooting and giving me these gracefully mesmerizing photos. You are a talented photographer and I can't wait to see you go far honey. :)

Everything happens for a reason.

Amazing, isn’t it:
The fact that you are sitting in front of the screen, reading this very blog, in this exact moment in time. ‘Cause believe it or not, I, too, find it amazing to be sitting here writing this particular one, after experiencing probably the worst writer’s block in my life. But somehow, something brought you here. And one way or another, something had ignited my mind in putting these thoughts in writing.
As cliché as it may sound, they say, “Everything happens for a reason.” And whether you believe it or not, God really does work in mysterious ways. It’s quite amazing how life works just the way we do not want them to. And in those moments, we may feel discouraged and disheartened and we feel as if nothing works out in our favor.
Despite these ordeals, there’s something that’s even more amazing than being tested and challenged. Life throws us the reality that it works just as how they should and it works just exactly how we need them to. Sooner or later, life brings us to the exact and precise moment that easily clarifies us of its motives behind those trials and endeavors.
Being a careless Catholic, oftentimes, I question God’s plans without putting so much thought into it. Recently, He put me through one of the more difficult walks in my life. I’ve asked God the reasons for some people’s existence in my life and question as to why He planned to place them here, only to take them away. I even questioned why life gave me the opportunity to work for a place that made me question the career I have chosen, only to take it away and leave me with doubts and financial instability. I’ve tried and tried to understand it and I’ve tried to reflect on the explanations behind His decision.
Then I remembered, “Everything happens for a reason”. And God works in mysterious ways. And just as when I reached my breaking point, reality hit me with clarity and realizations that I’ve yearned for to happen.
People who walked in and then walked out of my life taught me the value of the ones who never ever had the slightest thought of leaving. My recent experience showed me the greatness of love’s worth, because of people who never lost an ounce of love for me, despite of everything I blatantly put them through. I learned that forgiveness is possible to give for people who are willing to change, like myself, and for people who are misunderstood and for the ones who were living in the dark shadows with no clarity.
I learned that working in a bad environment, employed by someone whose competence is questionable, made me appreciate and value when good opportunities come along the way. I started to understand that there are still people out there who genuinely care about my success and live to see the day I thank them for helping me achieve my dreams. I realized how much room there’s left to grow and that being able to experience the good and the bad, made me lose the doubts in my decisions, and most especially, the doubts I had in myself.
Everything happens for a reason, and that’s why there’s a reason why certain people fight so hard for what they want despite of any obstacle they are facing. There’s a reason as to why there are relationships in our life that are meant to be broken, to be missed and longed for, and to realize that those are the ones meant to be nurtured are cherished. There’s a reason that life gives us the good, the bad and the ugly, so when we are ready and deserving to tackle the best, we are knowledgeable and prepared enough to understand its worth.
Amazing, isn’t it? Here you are, still reading until the very end of this post. And I guess there’s a reason behind you reading this and me writing it. Whatever that reason is, I hope we both learn from it, just as how we learn the reasons behind everything that happens from this point on.

Just a thought April 2014.

I think one of the most important aspects about relationships is fully understanding that it is not meant to be perfect. Relationships are difficult, complex and they require a lot of hard work and determination. Just like people. I think that each and everyone, regardless how easy-going a person is naturally, could be at one point or another difficult to deal with. Humans are not invulnerable to stress, to anxiety and the pressures of life. We’re perfectly imperfect, just as it reflects the relationships we have with others. Oftentimes, as people entertain the idea of relationships, they envision a place where they ought to gain something. People often want to find someone that can make them happy. And when that happiness is falling out of place, we find a million and one reasons to let go. Relationships are tedious and requires lots and lots of perseverance. But just like anything and everything that’s worth it, nothing will ever come easy.