On saving love for yourself.
Twice, thrice, four times the charm? What happens when it just becomes a reoccurring thing and next thing you know, you’re lost in it & you will find it way too difficult to get out? Well, it’s already becoming that way, and you’re doing nothing but dig yourself a bigger hole. He blatantly hurts you over and over again, yet, what do you do, you openly take the hits and love him even more for it. Reverse Psychology? Uh, no.
Recently, I’ve vowed to try not to use profanity. But hey, sometimes, you got to do what you got to do to make people listen. So, to you: Wake the fuck up.
One thing that disappoints me about people is when they are stuck in an unpleasant situation, they complain. It’s one thing to bitch about your current situation, but it is another when you do nothing about it. Reality check? You can only bitch about it for too long. What makes the matter even worse is that you make poor, most thoughtless and reckless decisions and do what? Yes, complain about it even more. Why do you keep on taking him back in? Why do you keep on openly inviting back the problems in your life?
First of all, before you even put the thought of him loving you sincerely, think about it why he’s cheating on you, lies to you & worse, physically hurting you in the first place. That to me is not love. And if that’s what it is to you? Man, you might have some issues and I think you might just need to re-learn even just the definition of it. You let him in over and over again, for what? To prove to him that he’s right? That he can do all the wrong things and yet, at the end of the day, you’ll will still take him back in? If that’s what you want, fine. Just please, don’t complain about it. We also get tired of hearing the same damn problem, over and over again when the solution is crystal clear.
Did it ever cross your mind that maybe, the reason why he’s not genuinely loving you is ‘cause he sees you aren’t loving yourself? And when he puts that into his mind that you don’t love yourself, why would he? Love is complicated, but it isn’t rocket science. I am sure when the bad outweighs the good seven times more, it should be a red flag. It should have been a red flag before your “third times a charm”.
So I say do yourself (and us who has to listen to it) a favor and for once in your life, save love for yourself. If not love, the least you can save is some self respect. Damn.