Sometimes, it’s so hard to be the one that wants. ‘Cause even though time and time again, you convince yourself you don’t want them, you do. Every single bone in your body conveys you otherwise. ‘Cause even though you tell yourself a million and a half times that you aren’t meant to be, you still spend a million and a half hours scrutinizing the possibility. ‘Cause even though you know how much they’re having the time of their life, with somebody that they’re genuinely happy with, you can’t help but think to be in that significant other’s position. How lucky. How blessed. And just how perfect it would have been if it was you they’re sharing that blissful life with.
But damn, it is just so damn hard to be the one that wants. ‘Cause you thrive on every possibility of ever getting their attention. One look, that’s all you really need. But sometimes, even one look is a long shot. Oh, you they’re moving in together? You can’t help but be happy. You can’t deny that seeing the one you want, getting what they want is somehow, somewhat rewarding. You’re happy, sincerely. From the outside looking in, it’s still hard to be the one that wants.
Sometimes, it’s so hard to be the one that’s wanted. Maybe ‘cause the one who wants you is not the person that you want, or maybe, just maybe because you can’t wrap the idea of somebody wanting you. It’s hard to be the one that’s wanted because when they do, you almost always are happy (or happy enough) with somebody else, that kind of wanted and now, got you. Sometimes it’s hard to be the one that’s wanted, ‘cause seeing the one who wants you as they watch far away, hoping you’re happy, seeing you happy and wishing they’re they one who’s the reason for that.
Damn it, it’s hard to be the one that’s wanted because sometimes, you can’t help but notice them just watching from the sidelines, hopeless, disheartened and there’s nothing you could really do about it. Sometimes, it’s so hard to be the one that’s wanted, because you know exactly how wanting somebody who doesn’t want you feels. And they can’t help it but congratulate you when the one you’re with, finally proposed with an engagement ring. Sincerely, but heart breaking, they say they’re happy. But there’s nothing you could do or say to the one who wants you. From the outside looking in, it’s just as hard to be the one who’s wanted.
Sometimes, you’re the one who wants, and they don’t want you. And sometimes, you’re wanted by somebody you don’t. It’s hard. But what can you do?