At one point, we all thought we were always going to be alone. That no man will ever fill that void in our hearts we’re longing for would ever be found, or better yet, find us. The time we believed that our hands are meant to touch and feel no other man’s warmth, no other man’s pair to hold, to lock with and intertwine.
That point in time, that moment, we suddenly feel and realize the left side of the bed seem pretty damn cold and empty, no second tooth brush in the bathroom and blue razors to match our pink ones. No dirty socks to fight over, no toilet seat to start an argument, but yet no chest to lay our head to hear those deep breaths, inhale, exhale, as he slowly falls asleep.
But even at that point in time, we’re perfectly fine by ourselves. We’re at the point where we accepted that being alone is quite satisfying, more time for me, myself & I, without ever feeling lonely.
And at one point, we all thought he was the one. That one man to call your husband and a man who will call you his wife, eventually. A point where you both paint a perfect picture of a wonderful and happy relationship years ahead. A house with a colorful garden, two children, maybe three, a swing set and a swimming pool.
That point in time there was no one else but you & him, him & you, and there was no other but countless dreams, goals and plans. The point where nothing he can ever say or do, will make you think twice about how you feel.
Love is a beautiful thing, you both believe and at this point, he was the only man you hold, you lock lips with, you make love with. The time he was the other, in significant other & that, that’s when you realize he’s the one making the left side of the bed warmer and warmer, each and every day and night, as you listen to his heart beat, that’s beating your name, as you both slowly fall asleep breathing each other’s love.
But at one point, things simply change. You are still you and he is still he, but slowly drifting from that ‘you & me’. At one point, feelings simply go. There’s never any guarantee that tomorrow, you will wake up, and wake up next to him.
At one point, we wake up to a whole another person who is doubting himself, doubting you & worse, doubting love. We wake up one morning to someone who is falling out & falling apart. At one point, we wake up to somebody who wants to take a step back, a step further and further from the woman he claimed he loved. And at this point? We lose everything. We lose our trust in love. We lose our trust in relationships. We lose our trust in people.
But yet at one point, we rise above it all, move on and simply, let go. Hoping that at one point, well find that certain ‘other’ that won’t ever leave us, no matter where we are at any point in our lives. And you know what? I promise you, we will.