I feel like there are a million things I want to say, but I just can’t find the words to do the justice. If you ask me how I feel right now, I’d say I don’t even know and that feeling of not knowing is starting to become so familiar. I thought I have found myself once again and regained even just a bit piece of clarity but somehow, every time I feel like I am feeling any close to comfort, I find myself falling back into a hole I no longer find a ground. I keep falling. And when I feel like I stop, just so I can look up to see how far I’ve gone, I free fall once again. Fuck. This time, even faster. This time, even deeper. Sometimes, I don’t even know where to begin to save myself.