I don't know who to ask I'm so confused.

LKC aims to take in 50 students in 2013.

50 out of the thousands of A level students, not forgetting those in poly.

I really don't know if I should take the test or even aim for it.

straight A's and good BMAT score are two things I have even lesser confidence in than me onsight'ing a 6b route when I try lead for the first time.

the figures for NUS NTU fees make me cringe, I can't imagine going overseas to study, no matter how much I want to.

look at Italy for example. not only do I have to take IMAT, I have to spend a couple thousand euros to take a 620 session proficiency exam to understand Italian before I can even attend classes.

and studying in china is just... scary...

I know I should be focusing n A's now but honestly I need to work out where I want to go now before i even sit
for the exams in order to make preparations.

I'm not afraid, a little stressed yes, but I just worried about student loans and job prospects when I finish my education.

I have nothing against national service, hell I'd love to go and learn new skills and develop independence and sense of self reliance but honestly, taking away 2 years of the most important period of my life is pretty much a huge dick move, Singapore.

I still remember talking about how alcohol stimulates the digestive system and the basic concepts with the "I know it all" tone to a relative who's a doctor.

till this date every time I think of it, I stop whatever I'm doing and have the overwhelming urge to bang my head against a wall.

I'd love to be a doctor or specialist.