「今の仕事は腰掛」という考えの落とし穴
Today's video made me think deeply about my perspectives toward jobs, and I felt very humbled.I’ve been working for the same company for almost eight years. I like my job; however, I’m in the process of changing my career. The job I have now is challenging and fulfilling, but the biggest problem is that I cannot get more work hours due to the company’s policy.My priority in life right now is raising my children. I thought spending enough time with my kids when they are little would be very important, so I chose a job, which gave me flexibility. I felt blessed that I was able to find a job that I liked, and its work hours was just perfect for my lifestyle in the past eight years.My kids are getting bigger, and they are more independent now. They don’t need my full attention. It’s more likely that they don’t want my full attention any longer. I need to star planning my own life path, not as a mother. Also, my other concern is that my husband is a primary breadwinner now, but if something happened to him, we wouldn’t be able to survive financially. Looking for a full-time job which gives me good benefits while I can, makes total sense.I’m committed tomy current job and I think I’m working hard. However somewhere in my heart, I feel like the job is just a stepping stone for me, and I take it for granted. Yesterday, I felt very embarrassed during the Zoom meeting. I was supposed to pick the best project among five presented projects before the meeting began. I had a week to prepare, but I was only given one hour (paid work hour) for the preparation. Each project was about twenty minutes long. I felt exhausted, and I just skimmed through those five projects. After all, I picked one, which “seemed” to be the best one without any concreate reasons.During the meeting, I was the first one to introduce the project that I picked. However, my boss wanted me to explain the reasons for my decision. I was not ready for the question (It was so dumb of me!), so I couldn’t give a convincing response to it. The most embarrassing thing was that other team members presented their choices with clear reasonings, and it was clear that I was the only one who didn’t spend enough time for this small, but important mission. It was humiliating.The questioner in today’s video sounded arrogant in a very subtle way. He was very polite and seemed to be humble; however, he screamed “I deserve better!” in his letter. Osho read his mind very well. I felt that I was acting like the questioner as well.Although I’m searching for a new job, and putting my effort into it, it doesn’t mean that I can take my current job for granted. Work is work. My company trusts me and my ability, so they pay me to work for them.
