The last couple months have been an especially rough period on many people and I had the time to ponder over more things than I could ever find pleasant to. The various every day incidents kept consuming me, to the point I sometimes felt energy-less. Of course I believe that every drop of energy spent was spent for a good cause, however this left me energy-less from time to time.
Exactly two months back, I also had the pleasure to meet five little fur-balls, that kept my hands busy and filled my heart with all sorts of positive emotions every single day. The last few weeks, they also occupied my room's balcony, transforming it into a 24h playground and positive energy powerhouse. They've been my companions while walking down a steep, curvy road and I really feel thankful about that. In return, I did whatever I could to keep them safe and happy.
最近の２ヶ月は多くの人に辛かったよね。色々な事に考える時間沢山あった。。ていうか考えすぎた。毎日なにかあって、ずっとエネルギー使って使って、たまに疲れてた。勿論そのエネルギーはいい事の為に使ったから嬉しかったけど、時々本当にエネルギーないと感じてた。
後 は、２ヶ月前は小さなファーボールの５匹と出会えた。彼らのおかげで毎日忙しくて、毎日心は素敵な気持ちでいっぱいだった。そして、最近の何週間は、部屋 についてるバルコニーに居て、バルコニーは一日中遊び場みたいし、Ｐｏｓｉｔｉｖｅエネルギーの工業みたい。あの5匹は難しくて急峻な道で私のそばに楽し く歩いてきた。それは凄くありがたいから、かれらを一所懸命守った。
And tomorrow I'll finally have to say goodbye to one of them. I hate goodbyes more than anything, because I get ridiculously emo, drowning in unreasonable depths of guilt because for example I cannot keep all the cats I meet on the street, I can't save everything and everyone I'd want to save and eventually I end up feeling weak and small, disappointed at myself for not being a superhuman with infinite saving powers, to stop everything that is sad and unfair in the world and protect everyone and everything that needs it. If there was ever a dream job application that could include "superhuman", I'd definitely be the first to apply.
Well, the good news is I've found a kind human to give the kitty to and I hope it will be happy and live a long, healthy life and I hope it understands I'm not a cruel person for taking it away from its furry family. I think kitties are smart enough to understand human language, so I'm going to talk to them and explain the situation. The mom is a very smart cat, so I hope she will listen to me. I'll do my best.
でも明日は１匹にさようならにする。。。さようならってなによりも悲しい。ソフィアは凄くエモになってしまうし、何故か凄く疚しいし。。家がない動物の皆を家に連れてこれないから、守りたい人、と動物と物を守れないから、結局は自分にがっかりする。自分が小い。弱いと感じてる。人間以上じゃないから、世界の嫌なことと悲しいことと不公平なことをとめられないから、自分にがっかりしてる。んんん。。。理想の仕事申し込みがあれば、”スーパーウーマン”を選べれば、私は絶対に申し込む 「苦笑
ええと、いい知らせもあるけど。子猫は明日とても優しい人にあげる。優しいから、子猫は楽な人生を過ごすように祈っている。そしてソフィアは酷い人だと思わないように。。あのね。。。ネコって人間の言葉分かると思うから、ママと子猫達に話してみるね。説明してみる。ネコママは本当に頭のいいネコだから理解してくれるかな。。？頑張ります。
"Let's invade Sophia's room!"
｢ソフィアの部屋に入ろう～”
あれえええ～
よし！